Life of a College Student

Getting Back

2009-11-11T21:07:00.002-06:00

Hey Yall,

It's been a while. Sorry. I've been really busy with school...I don't think I've had this much homework since....well A.P. Calculus..lol.
Anyways. School is going well. Im doing really well in my Business classes. Which is good. I just recently sent in a MAJOR scholarship that will pay for almost all of the rest of my college starting next semester...that would be a major blessing, and a GREAT Christmas present...

Things are ok right now. Although school is going great, I've been struggling with other things. Some stuff happened between my best friend, Brice, and his mom, so he is staying at his dad's house. As a result, I haven't seen him in a month...it really stinks. So I miss him a lot and that kinda has me down. And for some reason lately, I have been really missing my great grandmother. It was really hard for me when she died, and for a while, I was having a hard time getting along. For some reason Ill have waves..I'll be doing fine, and then bam, it will hit me...I miss her so much it hurts. I think that maybe I miss her the most when I know she would be there to help me through the times that I need her. For example...Sunday I was having a really bad day.. I made my dad upset, and he was lecturing me..and I just started crying.. That night while he was down in the horse barn riding horses with some of our friends, I was just in my room... I had my scrapbook out that I made her one year for her birthday and was just looking at...I was hugging a quilt she had made me before she got sick, and I was just balling...I keep the quilt up in the closet, so when I got it out, it smelt like her...It brought back so many memories...I just hate she isn't here... It's so hard. But I know she wouldn't like me being sad...

Anyways. only about 20 school days left till Christmas break...and only 2 weeks till Thanksgiving break!!...
Im very excited..I need the break!!!

Well, I will try and start posting more often.
Until Next time,
Aubrey

Almost There!!!!

2009-04-27T09:32:00.002-05:00

...I'm almost done with my freshman year of college...One final down, 3 to go!!..Yes. My first final was this morning @ 7:30!!..ugh. I've come to the conclusion that there really is no need to do anything school related @ that God-Forsaken hour of the morning!.. ;) anything else, I can deal with..but not school. My brain doesnt function that early....sooo...only 3 more finals!!...One online..so I get to use my book..and I have to take it this afternooon...and then one tomorrow and one Thursday..and then I am officially done!!! =)
I am so excited for summer!..Yes, I realize I have to work, but not in the evenings!!..I will be able to spend a whole bunch more time with my best friend, ANNNND my amazing cousin!!.Yes, I miss you greatly Jana dear!!.. ;)and I can't wait to see you!!
Speaking of spending time with my best friend, I got to yesterday!!!..I had a blast... There was a small church meeting/get-to-gether @ his house yesterday, and he didn't want to be bored..so he was like..COME OVER!!!..lol. so I did. we mostly ate..and messed around on the guitar...and after we finished with all that, we watched a little t.v...we were watching a movie, but he fell asleep, and then I did...lol. so much for that movie..lol...
..and it's another rainy day outside..but I like it today...lol. It's nice sometimes to enjoy a cloudy/rainy day...
I hope you have an amazing day as well!..
ttyl! =]
xoxo -Aubrey

"...Can'tchya See It's Just Rainin...."

2009-04-09T22:46:00.002-05:00

.."Ain't no need to go outside.."...A fantastic song by Jack Johnson, entitled Banana Pancakes...yes...A song about bananas and pancakes. Together. yumm. I don't know why I didn't think of it. If you haven't heard it. You should google and listen to it. Listen closely. It will make you laugh. I promise!..you should trust me with this one. ok. so after you listen to it. Let me know what you think.
Anyways. Everytime it rains I start singing this song. That is the reason I am being so persistent. Boy did it rain. It rained hard too!...and they had a tornado touch down in the town I went to high school in. Very scarey. My parents are ok. And Im pretty sure my best friend is, I just haven't been able to get ahold of him. I think he's sleeping. As I am sure most normal people are at this hour. =)
anyways. yes everyone/everything is fine. I am glad. I think that is about it. Only 11 more days of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!..yay!!!..I am so excited for this summer!...I have a lot of plans, and a lot of work..lol.
Well. I think I will retire to my bed now!.. Toodles! =)
XOXOXO

So...It's been a while. =)

2009-04-02T19:42:00.002-05:00

Im sorry it has been so long since I have last written. It feels like I've been busy..but I'm not sure I've actually got anything to show for it...So let's start @ the beginning.
School is going well. Only about 15 regular days left of school!!..and then finals week. But I think I will be done the Tuesday before the Friday that is the last day of school...I hope that made since...lol
Anyways. I've been sick the last week. A cough, sore throat, and runny nose. I'm feeling better, but I still have this stupid cough. =/ O well...it will be gone soon.
I am SOOOOO ready for the summer!..I like school, but I don't like living in the city. I LONG for home. It's terrible...The sad thing is I go home every Weekend and Once during the week...i think I just need a break from school..I love my friends here. But I miss spending random days with my best friend @ home...=/ haha. we went dumpster diving last night @ church!..that was an adventure!!.. I loved it!...
This weekend is college weekend, and there are A LOT of prospective students here...A LOT!!!!!!!...lol. I feel like I'm being overrun with high schoolers.
Everything else is going good. Im raising a bottle calf, and her name is Charlie..I think I might also be getting another one..I will name her Walter. I laugh @ my names!!..every time.

Recently my youth pastor and praise and worship pastor have been fired. So my best friend and I are now leading praise and worship. This is a chore, but I believe that if we are faithful, God will bless us abundantly...
I also recently killed my phone. But it's ok. The insurance replaced it...but i knocked off a pillow while i was sleeping. the pillow hit my glass of water, which spilled over on my phone that was charging...
I guess I only have one thing really left...
The Easter Lily's have been blooming the last couple of weeks...I am certain they are my favorite flower..Of course there's a story behind that. =) I hope you don't mind me telling it!...So here goes. My great grandmother that passed away last year, well the lane that leads to her house, is fenced on either side; The fence encompasses the yard. On one side of the lane, the fence is lined with Easter Lily's (a.k.a Daffodils.) Ever since I can remember, we would always pick a bouquet of Daffodils, and she would always display them proudly on her table. When she got too old to go out and pick them, I would go pick them for her. I was always so happy that she wanted to put my flowers on her table. Last year, she was in the assisted living about this time; the time when the daffodils bloomed. So I picked some and brought them to her. Even though she wasn't responding a lot, I remember her loving the flowers..She proudly had me put them in a vase on her bedside table...and I was once again happy..I guess daffodils were one of our special things...We had a lot of special things... This year when I started seeing the flowers, I was happy. I saw them for several weeks, and with every passing glance, I thought of her. I had planned on picking some and putting them on her grave, but I haven't. And now, I'm pretty sure they're gone for this year; the snow and cold weather got them. I think maybe I was afraid of picking them this year, and not being able to have them proudly displayed on her table... and that is heartbreaking.
But my Lily's will be back next year, and that is promising... =)

Well, I have to go take a test online. I promise to start blogging more!..
xoxo -A-

When I Grow Up....(Dream Big.)

2009-02-23T22:01:00.001-06:00

Most kids have usually said these words, "When I Grow Up...". I have been pondering lately, and I have come to the conclusion that these kids are smart; they know how to dream. I think the problem with a lot of people these days is they don't know how to do this. They have gotten caught up with everyday matters, and lost sight of their dreams... This happens to be one of my favorite things to do. In fact I would love share the list of things that I dream about for when, "I Grow Up." So if your willing, let me take you on a journey; a journey of what's to come. Hopefully you'll see the picture as I see it.

..So. My dreams are a little different from when I was 4. Then, me and my friend had dreams of being mermaids. I have since then revised my plans and this is what I want. When I Grow Up, I don't want to have to worry about what the economy is going through. I am a daughter of the most high God; He's going to take care of all of my needs...(I have nothing to worry about.) I want to be more than financially stable; I want to be able to give back and sow seeds into God's kingdom. He paid the ultimate price for me, it's the least I can do. The other part of being financially stable is I can live a luxurious life; yes, as my parents can testify, I like the finer, more expensive things in life.
You might ask me how I aquired all this money, and three scenerios come to mind immediately. One, I won the 100-some-odd million dollar lottery. But since I don't gamble, we can rule this possibility out. Number Two, my great-grandmother, left me a large inheritance when she passed, that nobody knows about yet, and I don't find out for a while. Or Number Three, the most likely possibility; I work my butt off in my own clinic as a therapist..(and make some big bucks might I add. ;] )
I would like to be able to travel anywhere in the world that I desire. To be able to take my family on crusies, to go to NYC occassionally, to Hawaii, and to Disney World multiple times. Yes, we will have many family vacations.
So far, I have shown you some of the luxurious things I would love to have. Let's contunue on. I want to live in a huge house. I want it to be one that you would see in Better Homes and Gardens; one shown on HGTV. And, I can't wait to decorate all of it!!!...(If my Best Friend from pre-school becomes an interior designer, then I'm gonna ask her to help me!!.lol. ;D ..thanks Kels!)...I want a huge kitchen so I can cook a wonderful dinner every night!...I want beautiful, Cherry hardwood floors...And a three car garage. I plan on having my husband's car, the sports car (hopefully black Porsche), and my cerulean blue metallic colored Lexus RX 10 parked in the garage. I want a beautiful living room that has a big screen t.v., a leather couch, and a Black Steinway Grand Piano in it.
Picture this..a lot of land in the country. With a beautiful stone house. This is the outside of my cute maison..(house.) Now picture the yard...beautiul flower beds in front of the house...a huge green lawn with a cute little fence. Soft green grass that is so thick and lucious. A back yard with the same green grass, flower beds, a tree house for the kids, and a swimming pool. Laying on one of the shaded lounge seats is my black and white Siberean Husky that I have had since the day I graduated college. Her name is Maya.
Enough with the house and yard, let's move on to the kids. I once made a bet with my best friend Brice. I bet him $20 that I would adopt my kids, and not have them myself. Well. I guess I wasn't at the point in my life where I thought that little kids are TOOOO CUTE and WAAAAAAY adorable. I have since changed my point of view and now have 2 girl and boy names picked out.... I'm not really sure at the moment If wanna have that many children, but if I do end up having that many, I have their names. Ava Monroe, Adelynn (not sure bout middle name yet.) Nikolai, Cade (those middle names are secrets...my knowledge only!..lol. I want them to have beautiul brown, curly hair..... I believe Brice has won this bet, we just won't tell him yet.. ;)
To have these kids, I believe things must be done God's way. I must first be married!!..I'm gonna have an outrageoulsy beautiful wedding!...I can picture it now...but that's a whole 'nother story in itself. ;) But really, I can't wait to be married!...I want to have a special guy that loves me for me. That needs me as much as I need him...I want to hold hands just because we can...I want to be in love..It would really be nice now, but the one thing they don't tell you; When he comes, it will be worth the wait. Ya. I don't mind at all waiting for God's timing; waiting for that guy.
As much as I want all of these things, the number one thing in my life has to be God, and my relationship with him. I have to work with him first, but I do believe He will give me the desires of my heart one day.
So, Im sorry it's so long..But I thank you for those of you who have taken time out of your day to read this. Little kids always dream and say when I grow up; I think more adults should take lessons from kids and never stop dreaming. So. This is what I dream about for when I grow up. Hope you enjoyed my dreams and I would love to hear about yours. ;)
Keep the Faith,
God Bless and have a wonderful day.

I have....

2009-02-19T20:04:00.003-06:00

...come to a conclusion...a very good one at that..or @ least so I think...Anyways..I have come to the conclusion that life would be better if I didn't have to go to school, and got to live on the farm all the time...For those of you who are jumping the gun, don't worry; I have every intention of finishing school (Undergrad, Masters, and perhaps Ph.D.)...but I would love nothing more than be able to spend all my time on the farm, rather than going to all these boring classes. Now don't get me wrong, not all of them are boring. My psych class, is very interesting, and I'm glad I'm in it.....French the same way..but just about the rest of them are making me go crazy.( Not that there's really that far to get there!)..lol. but anywho. Wouldn't my time be much better spent being productive, than it would be sitting in a lecture that everyone is suffering through!...hahah. I think so...Of course, once I get to take classes that are actually related to my major next year, I think I will be much more enthralled...But for now, I'd rather be feeding cows, and practicing my psychology on them!..hahah. (wouldn't that be funny.)...or another random thought..I could pursue my first lifelong dream that I can remember having...(me and my first best friend I ever had.)...I'll become a mermaid!!!!!!!!!!!! =) hahah. The LIttle mermaid was our favorite movie!!..anyways..sorry about the randomness...But i will soon be full of motivation again!..Tomorrow is Friday, and I am going home to the farm!!!!!!!!....
Toodles to all!...and next time I promise not to be so discombobulated!!..hehe. ;)

...The Love Bug...blugggh!

2009-02-12T18:23:00.000-06:00

Ok...so forgive me ahead of time, as I plan on going on a rampage to let go of some of my feelings. I have come to the conclusion that Valentine's Day could be the most stupid holiday that we as humans have come up with yet. I mean, it has become another day that, starting the day after Christmas, advertises candy, stuffed animals, flowers, and other "romantic stuff" to "Woo" our sweathearts.We go out and spend, perhaps, hundreds of dollars on material things that can only be used while we're here on earth. First of all, if we have a "better half" to celebrate this "love day" with, why can't we do it without spending huge sums of money??..I mean it is so much more romantic if the gift you give comes from the heart, not the pocket book; for me @ least, it would seem like the gift was much more personal if the guy didn't spend a great deal of money. A simple home cooked meal by the fire place, or an original song composed by your sweetie would more than do the trick... now this seems very, very romantic to me...but then again, that's just me.
But If in a relationship shouldn't we show our love and appreciation to our "significant other" every day of the year, and not just one day that is set aside?? Shouldn't we have multiple (yet unofficial) Valentine's Days throughout the year??" Now, like I said, forgive me. I can see exceptions to this holiday, for example, a husband and wife who have multiple children, all under the ages of 10. In this case, yes, I can see where this specific day would be romantic; a chance to get away from the kids for a little while and have a much needed date night. But for high school students, and even college students (who unless are engaged) should we really waste our time and money on this??..Im not so sure.

You know, I've come to college (but it started in high school), and everyone is looking for someone to spend the rest of their lives with. Everyone seems in such a rush to get married, and have their lives planned out. Well, I have a question. What is so wrong with being single??..I've come to the conclusion, that nothing is wrong with this, and in fact there is nothing like it. Don't get me wrong, It would be amazing to have someone special to celebrate this holiday with, and someday I will; but this year I don't, so no big deal. I've seen a lot of people here @ school that think they are in love. Now I have no doubt that some of them truly are. But I also believe that the rest of them are just "in love" with the idea of being "in love." I hope that makes sense.

Why can't we single people just enjoy our time alone. I heard a speaker say @ a convention this past weekend, that God made all of our feelings, including lonliness.. But He made this feeling so that when we would feel that way, we would run to our Father in Heaven. We would read our Bibles, and spend time in prayer with Him. It got me to really thinking. If I don't spend enough time working on my relationship with my Heavenly Father, and making it work, how should I expect an earthly relationship with that special man to work??..You know, I have dreams for my life, and they include my wedding, marriage, and the rest of my future that goes along with it..And if they are according to God's word, I have no doubt, that He will fulfill my hearts desire. But why rush things?
So I have made a decision. I am going to stop wasting my times on guys. I've cut back already, but I need to do so even more. I'm not going to worry about the perfect guy for me. When I've come to the point in my relationship with God where I am 100% sure that He always is my first priority, I believe that God will work things out with my special guy.

So this note started out as a "Valentine's Day Hate Mail"..and gradually turned into a thinking and decision making process. For everyone who has a special someone to share Valentine's Day with. Go ahead, have fun with your night out on the town. My most sincere wishes... As for me, I will be watching Mall Cop, and enjoying popcorn and m&m's with my best friend; remembering that God is the main man in my life and will always be.

Another Day

2009-02-10T16:51:00.002-06:00

So. Today was a pretty normal day...lol. Woke up, went to classes, and now Im sitting in my dorm room eating my dinner. Like I said pretty normal. Not really a whole lot to share. Sorry I haven't written lately. I have been kinda busy. What with school and everything. And then this past weekend, I went to a leadership conference with my youthgroup. Now that was fun. I got to spend time with some of the most important people in my life.
Now. Im sitting here, catching up with you, and watching the weather. All of Green Country is under a tornado watch. And I got a little worried, so I just got off the phone with my dad. It might be funny what I was worried about...I asked him if my car got hail damage if the insurance would replace it...or if it got swept away by a tornado, if I would get a new one. No need to worry..lol.
So like I said nothing really new. Just thought I would update everybody. I did get my braces off last Monday. Now that was exciting!...I go back tomorrow to get my retainer to wear @ night. hmm. o well.
I do however find myself wishing summer was here. Not to worry though, only 79 days till Im done with my freshman year!.
So, that's about it!..
ttyl!.
Keep the Faith! =D
XOXO, Aubrey

Does It Ever.....

2009-01-16T09:13:00.002-06:00

...get any easier. It's been over eight months since my great grandmother died. Yet, I still miss her terribly. I think Im getting over her passing, and then Ill see a picture of me with her, and I just start balling like a big baby. I mean It's not as bad as when she first died. That was terrible. I would actually have classified myself as a person in a state of depression for a couple of weeks. I cried myself to sleep every night for a while. Yes, that was terrible. And I do know that I shouldn't be sad, because Ill get to see her again someday; and Im so grateful for that. But I think of all the good times that we had together, and I can't help be sad. I mean I spent A LOT of my childhood with her, and a lot of my memories involve her. And it's hard to think that I don't get to make anymore with her. I remember this story very distinctly. My aunt asked her one time if it ever got any easier after my great grandpa died. (this was about 10 years after) Grandma responded no. Now I know they were married, and that is a big difference from being her grand-daughter. but still.
Well I do believe that eventually I will be able to look at a picture of us and not cry. The question being when. They say that time heals everything. And with a lot of help from God, I believe this will be true. Someday the hole in my heart will not be as big as it is today. And I do thank God for that.

Sorry about my rampage there. I was having a moment.
In other news, School is going well, although, Im just ready for summer. That's all there is to it. And it is SOOOOO cold here!!..I mean single digits!..and we had a little snow. hmm. That's how I feel about it. I told dad yesterday "Bring on summer and hay baling!" You know that it's bad when Im begging to work. lol. ;)
And...I also get my braces off in like 16 days or so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...Im so excited!..Im gonna eat corn on the cob for the first time in like 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!
..I also went dancing last night. It was mainly a practice session thing that Krystine and I did with one of our good friends. It was so much fun!..I hadn't danced since I think before Thanksgiving!.It was good!...
well. Chapel is in a little while, so I better go get ready!. Toodles. Have a wonderful weekend!!!!! =)

Back to School.

2009-01-11T18:06:00.004-06:00

Well. I had a wonderful Christmas break. I got to spend time with most of my family members, and see ones that I hadn't seen in a while. It was good. New Year's Eve was A BLAST!!..I spent it with all of my friends from home @ my youth pastor's house!...It was so much fun, and I have so many memories just from that one night!... =) anyways. Then on New Year's Day my cousin wanted me to come help her redo her room....well. that was fun. let's just say, that I was VERY tired, and she did more work than I did!! ;)
Anyways, the rest of the break was awesome, I really enjoyed getting to hang out with all of my friends from church. Especially my bestest friend!!.. He's amazing!... ;)
SO now, I am back @ school. At the very moment, doing nothing...lol. who'dathunkit??!! probably gettin ready to watch a movie!.. funfun! =)
But I do have a relativly hard schedule...not hard, but Im gonna like it!! =) well. That movie is calling me. TTYL! ;)

Home Sweet Home.

2008-12-12T16:38:00.002-06:00

=)
I am ecstatic about being at home. As we speak, or as I type rather, I am enjoying some homemade party mix at my Papa and Mimi's house. mmmm. yummy! =)
This is the beginning of a very long break that involves a LOT of food. hmm. I better start excercising again before I go back to school! hehe. =P
(the dreaded HPE will get me if I don't!!>>HPE=Health and Physical Exercise)..BLAGGH!!!
anyways. I've been home for 3 days now and loved every bit of it! On Wed. I ran around with my dad, had lunch, and then went to my old high school. I saw my old choir teacher and talked with her for a little bit. The choir was practicing the Messiah chorus, one of the songs we sang @ my Christmas choir concert @ school!..It was pretty funny...so anyways.. I visited my old school, and was very excited to see everyone!!...I was also there to pick up 3 of my friends that also go to the same church(youth group) as I do...My best friend being among them!!!! =) hehe. I was so excited to see him, it was ridiculous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO..we bascically jammed out in my car on the way to church...it was awesome!!...I was in much need of jamming time!!..=)
so then we just hung out with our youth pastor with @ church...I got to play the piano with them for praise and worship..I love worshipping the Lord with the talents he has blessed me with!!..(just thought I'd throw that in there...)
Then on Thursday, I picked Brice up from school, and we went to the youth building...we had to wait a couple of hours till band practice, for church on Sunday, was ready to start, so we watched one of our favorite movies on my laptop...AUGUST RUSH!!!...If you're a musician you understand!
And today, I went to the farm show in Tulsa with my dad and grandpa...we had fun..we walked down EVERY asile...and Im NOT exaggerating either..But the real reason I went was for the fresh squeezed lemonade they had..it was SOOOOOOOO amazing..well that and to spend time with my dad and gpa...
Well..just thought I'd give you a play by play!!hahah.
...Now Im sitting here typing, and getting distracted by the Chronicles of Narnia on t.v., and waiting for my dad to take me to eat!..hehe. yup. exercise needed definitly!! =)
Nothing better than HOME SWEET HOME!
So, I guess Ill let you go...ttyl! =)

I'll Be Home For Christmas....

2008-12-08T15:51:00.003-06:00

..I just absolutly love Christmas songs...as you can see by the past few titles of my blogs!!.. =)

Anyways..as you may have guessed, I'll Be Home For Christmas!!!.. (TOMORROW!!!)..that's right, I get to go home tomorrow!...I'm all done with my finals!!!!!!!!!!Thank the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!...The only thing I have left to do is tonight,..the Christmas choir I'm in is singing @ a local high school...It should be ok, although I would much rather go see a movie that my friends are going to watch...But O Well..This will be the last time for a month that I'll get to see my Choir buddies!..=/ I am gonna miss them...O I just remembered that I do have to turn a paper in tomorrow, but it's done, so that's no biggie!

As for Christmas, I am very excited, yet anxious about it this year. As you all know, My parents are divorced, and my father and I are doing Christmas a little different this year; starting new traditions I guess you could say...For example, my mom never liked having a real Christmas tree, but I love real trees!!..So, on Friday, me and my dad are going to go chop one down!! =) Although Im looking forward to that, Im not looking forward to having to go to 2 different houses to have Christmas with my parents. My mom also wants me to come spend the night sometime at her house while Im on break; part of my wants to, but another part of me doesn't know if I can handle it...Im still praying about it...Please pray for me to!!!

Also, This is the first Christmas without my grandmother...I hope this isn't very hard to deal with, although, I get tears in my eyes just thinking about it... hmm. anyways..I remind myself of all the great memories that I have with her, and Im ok... I found this poem somewhere, and I liked it so much, that I put it in my quote book and Im thinking about reading it @ Christmas time...It helps me put a smile on my face about Christmas this year.... Ill post it at the end, hope you enjoy it..

Anyways...Im also looking forward to the regular holiday traditions that my family has!!..Christmas Eve Morning=Christmas with Papa and Mimi(Sylvia)...I love thinking of new gifts to make for Papa, because I am the orneriest with him, so my gifts are usually very ornery...and I have an exceptionally good one this year!! Then we(the family) enjoy very good lunch, stuffing ourselves full up to the top claiming that we will, "Never be able to eat again," or my personal favorite, "I don't think I'll ever be able to move!!" We then procede on to opening presents, and spend time talking with the aunts, uncles, cousins, we haven't see in a while...We have a great time...Then on Christmas Eve, we make our way up to Mama's house, pack everyone in to the small, yet cozy, living room, and even after proclaiming that we will never eat again, we some how manage to find room in our stomach for 2 helpings of lasagna, 2/3 pieces of garlic bread, salad, and a huge portion of Mississippi Mud for desert...After everybody has stuffed theirselves again, someone reads the Christmas story from Luke 2...we take turns reading outloud every year, and I believe that it is Jana's turn this year if I am not mistaken..anyways...we read the story to remind us the true reason for the season!!..Jesus Christ...I love this tradition.. then of course, we procede on to the presents...the little kids making out with gifts like little bandits. The funny part is that the kids get the toys, and the parents end up playing with them!!(putting them together!) =) And sometimes, if anyone is feeling brave, someone will turn on the t.v. and try to watch, It's a Wonderful Life!!.(My favorite Christmas movie!!)

Well, I guess this was a longer post than expected...but I'm so excited for Christmas!! =)

So, I better be getting ready for my choir concert!...Merry Christmas everyone!!..ttyl! =)

Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless CHRISTMAS TREES

around the world below,

with tiny lights like HEAVEN’S STARS

reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so SPECTACULAR

please wipe away that tear

for I am spending CHRISTMAS

WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I hear the many CHRISTMAS SONGS

that people hold so dear

but the SOUND OF MUSIC can't compare

with the CHRISTMAS CHOIR up here.

I have no words to tell you

of the JOY their voices bring

for it is beyond description

to HEAR THE ANGELS SING.

I know HOW MUCH YOU MISS ME,

I see the pain inside your heart

for I am spending CHRISTMAS

WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I can't tell you of the SPLENDOR

or the PEACE here in this place

Can you just imagine CHRISTMAS

WITH OUR SAVIOR face to face

I'll ask him to LIFT YOUR SPIRIT

as I tell him of your love

so then PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER

as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your HEARTS BE JOYFUL

and let your SPIRIT SING

for I am spending CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

and I’m walking WITH THE KING

Baby It's Cold Outside!!!

2008-12-03T14:28:00.001-06:00

ahhh!!..I think it be a little chilly outside!!...It reminds me of one of my favorite Christmas songs...Baby It's Cold Outside!!...I find this song extremely hilarious, yet I don't know why!!..But what I found funnier was as I was walking to Saga for lunch today (saga=cafeteria) they were playing it on the speakers outside..I find this ironic, because it is cold outside today!!..The wind is really bad!!..But anyways..they were playing the version that has Frank Sinatra singing..Old Blue Eyes..how I love to hear him sing...but I kinda started dancing by myself...Swing Dancing to be exact..I was so excited to hear the song!!.. =) Yes, I am a dork, and I never claimed to be normal...so I didn't lie, and Im telling the truth!!!
In other news, it seems like all I do lately is sing, sing, sing, and write papers. Singing is wonderful, papers not so much!!.. =P
Today was Christmas chapel, and the Christmas choir I am in, sang, along with several of the other choirs. We sand 3 of our songs. The Jazz and Wind Ensemble also preformed in chapel today, and they were really good as well. But I think the most amazing part was my piano teacher...he played a piano solo, and my jaw dropped open...again. He played it for me yesterday during my lesson. Anyways, he is really good..he was bustin out some 1/64th notes!!..Not even kidding!...hmm.
Anyways, I have been singin ALL week..we had Oratorio (christmas) choir practice on Monday, had Christmas chapel today, have practice tomorrow, the ORU Family Christmas program Friday, practice again on Sunday, and then we preform Monday nite @ one of the area high schools. This is a really busy week; it is considered dead week, the week before finals, but in all reality it's HOPPIN!...and I only have 2 finals next week, but they will be over by Monday!..yay!!!..My RA is checking me out of my room for this semester on Tuesday and I will be on my way home!!..For almost a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can u believe it!!..IM SO EXCITED!!...
anyways..I better go, I have Oral Comm in 30 min.!!..(btw, I made an A on my persuasive speech!! =])

Back in The Groove of Things..

2008-12-02T15:48:00.003-06:00

So. I've been back in OK since Saturday afternoon. If you can recall, I spent my Thanksgiving with one of my friedns and her family in Pennsylvania. She is from NC but has some relatives in PA so her family decided to go up there for Thanksgiving. It was so much fun!..I got to meet her stepdad ( who was hilarious), her sister (she was pretty cool), her aunt, 2 cousins, and I got to see her mom again. Her mom is so sweet. Anyways. Thanksgiving dinner was sooo good!..OMG. I didnt stuff myself, but I definitly ate my share!!!.. =) I enjoyed PA so much. It was so pretty. THere were a lot of Amish farms and people there. And I enjoyed my first real Philly Cheese Steak Sandwich!!..THAT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!...I would get on an airplane right now to go get another one if I could! ...
anyways so we got up VERY VERY early on Sat. morning to come home and were back by 10:30 in the morning. My aunt, cousin, and 2 little cousins picked me up @ the airport. I was so glad to see them!..I was afraid I wasn't gonna get to see my older cousin till Christmas. So my aunt dropped us off back here @ ORU and I decided @ the spur of the moment to go home for the rest of the weekend. So I ran upstairs changed clothes and was on my way!!...Im so glad I went home. I got to hunt w/ my dad and his friend for a little while(although I fell asleep for about an hour cuz I was so tired) and then we went to his friend's house for supper and most importantly to watch the OU/OSU game!!..BOOMER SOONER baby!!!... =) that's right..OU won(of course) and is playing in the Big 12 game this Sat. Nite!!....
While I was home I also got to see all my friends @ church...I miss them so much!!...We went to eat after church, and I also ran into 2 of my friends from High School that were on the football team. I talked to them for a little bit, I was very excited to see them as well!!.. =)

Other than that, not much is going on here. Studying for finals, singing, playing the piano. The usual really. Oh, I have encountered a new series that I really enjoy reading and have become quite intrigued(spelling?) with....that would be the Twilight series. It is so good!!..I have read the 1st 3 books, and Im reading the 4th book right now..I have also seen the movie twice and plan on seeing it @ least once if not twice over Christmas break. It is so good!!!... =)
Anyways. That is about it. TTYL!!! =)
Keep the Faith!
XOXO-Aubrey

Hmm. Hmm. Hmm.

2008-11-20T20:44:00.002-06:00

So!!..lol.
Today has been pretty good...not really a whole lot going on lately...Practicing like Crazy for my women's choir and Christmas concert!!..Good thing I LOVE singing!!!....
I get my grade for my persuasive speech tomorrow. Be praying for me!!!..lol. I really need this grade to be a good one...
Other than that..not much...getting ready for Thanksgiving...o and I've been missing my bestest friend like CRAZY this week...I don't know why..But i sure do miss him!!...
welp. I probably won't get to write again till next week. My women's concert tonight and then Im going home this weekend!!!!

Keep It real!...And Keep the Faith.
Peace out! =)

That's What's Up! =)

2008-11-19T19:38:00.002-06:00

So. Today I gave my persuasive speech!...It honestly wasn't bad at all!!..If I do say so myself...Although I did have some help from my mom so I could get a good grade on it!..lol. But it was worth 500 points althogether!!...that's a lot seeins how we only get about 2000 pts in the whole class!..anyways..I changed the topic of it to The Importance of Parental Review Committees in Public Schools!!!..I will post my outline down below after I finish writing..That way if you want to read it you can..but if u don't want to, u don't have to!!.. =)
Anyways...Next week is Thanksgiving which I am super excited for!!..As I do love to eat!.. But Friday night is our women's choir concert!!...I am looking forward to this very much because a lot of my friends and family are coming to it!..My favorite part would happen to be the song that we are singing in Latin!!!...=) I can sing in Latin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Isn't that so cool!!!!!!
Other than that, not much going on lately.
Ya know, singing, dacning, playing the piano...eating, sleeping, movies, procrastinating homework, and then doing very well under pressure!..pretty much the life of a college student! =) nightey nite!

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PERSUASIVE SPEECH

Title: Importance of Parental Review Committees in Public Schools

Proposition of :This is a proposition of Policy because it states an issue, and the solution that should be put into place.

Specific Speech Purpose: To persuade the audience why it is important to have a parental review committee of text books and curriculum in public schools.
Introduction: Imagine as a parent, your child coming home saying that they’ve seen pornography. Not on the street corner or in a store, but rather in one of their classrooms. As a child who went through the public school system, I understand firsthand how difficult it can be to maintain Christian values with opposition of selective school curriculum. Today I challenge you to consider the benefit for a parental review committee of selected classroom materials in public schools.
Transition: These committees are beneficial for not only the child, but the Christian community, and the school district as well.
Body Outline:
I- The children of the schools would benefit from the parental review committee because the curriculum being used would be balanced in what it taught instead of being one-sided.

A- Most public school curriculums involve required reading, where the children do not get to choose what they do and don’t read.
1- According to the website Education Seek, Christian parents prefer sending their kids to private schools because they are almost always in a Christian environment (Christian Schools, Education Seek).
2- The children are able to learn what is needed for life, and handle any situations that are thrown their way.
3- They can continue to grow in their beliefs and further develop their values as Christians.
4- By contrast in the public schools, students are required to complete reading assignments and classroom activities that are selected by a teacher for the entire district.
B- An example of this selection process comes from my life. The summer before my sophomore year, my A.P. English class was assigned a book to read over the break entitled Bless Me Ultima. Being the great, overachieving student I am, I waited till about three weeks before school started to even pick the book up off the floor, let alone start reading it. I got approximately halfway through the book when I began to discover things that I didn’t think I really should be reading. The book was full of witchcraft; not only did it talk about it, but it also gave instructions on how to perform it. I immediately took the book to my parents who, I might add, were infuriated. They then proceeded to take the book to the school board to have it taken off of the required reading list. Long story short, only after about two months, and the backing of approximately 500 parents and people from my church and community did the school board decide to take the book of the list.
Transition: When it comes to their beliefs and values, the Christian community can have a tremendous effect on decisions made within the school district.
II- By involving more Christians, and placing them on the review committee, the Christian community, as a whole, would have more say about what was going on in their local schools.
A- As referenced by their online website, the Technical Journal found that approximately 90% of people surveyed would prefer to have the theory of evolution and the Creation story taught in public school systems (Bergman, "Teaching Creation in Public Schools”).
1-My personal belief goes back to Genesis 1:1 when the Bible states, “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth (Bible, Genesis 1:1).”
2-Although my beliefs are of the Creation story, to keep the balance of the curriculum, as stated before hand, the theory of evolution would also have to be at least explained.
B- According to the Constitutional Conflict Website, the evolution vs. intelligent design case controversy in Dover Pennsylvania of 2005 demonstrates the influence the Christian community can have while in the school district. Originally the school only taught the theory of evolution excluding the Creation Theory. The parents took the issue before the school board and it eventually wound up in the state supreme court resulting in a six week trial (Exploring Constitutional Conflicts, The Evolution controversy). The outcome of the trial stated that the biology teachers of Dover High School in Pennsylvania were required to explain Darwin’s theory along with the definition of a theory (Kitzmiller v. Dover). They were also required to say that “Intelligent Design differs from Darwin’s point of view and is an explanation of the origin of life (Kitzmiller v. Dover).”
Transition: That was a result of the public outcry of the Christian community that kept Christian students within the public school system.
III- The parent review committee recommends curriculum which complements the students families morals and values, which ultimately maintains the student population in the district.
A-Maintaining or increasing the student population within the district preserves revenue within the school district.
1- It the students leave because they aren’t happy with the curriculum the revenue decreases and the local economy and community suffers.
B-When interviewed the chairman of the Johnson O’Malley committee for Vinita Public Schools, in Vinita OK, stated that, “The School District received $160,000 in revenue in 2008 due to a 38% Native American student population(Cheryl Crawford, Vinita School District JOM chariman).”
1- If the Native American population were to decrease, because they were not happy with the school curriculum, the amount of money, received by the school, would decrease as well.
Transition: By installing a parental review committee, the curriculum in the school would be made satisfactory to everyone.
Conclusion: Today you have heard why the parental committee would be beneficial for the students of the public school system, how the committee could have a positive effect on the Christian community and how the parent group would support the school’s district by maintaining the student population. As young men and women of God, in the future, please consider implementing or serving on a parental review committee within your public school district to maintain the beliefs and values that we hold as Christians.

Speech!

2008-11-13T16:05:00.002-06:00

Ok. So I really hate to public speak..I can, and for the most part I do a good job, but I hate to!...
But I did really well on my Informative speech, and now we are working on our Persuasive Speech. Im really excited to get to do this speech beacuse I have picked an interesting topic; The Importance of a Nucular (spelling?) Family...basically why a divorce is destructful...
I havent spent very much time researching-only about an hour so far-and already I've found a bunch of information; a lot coming from James Dobson's organization Focus on the Family. I love this organization because they give a Christian view/advice/perspective on everything.
Anyways, that's a sneak peek of my persuasive speech.
We also recently had an Oral Comm. test..(Oral Communications=Speech)..and I got a 94 on it!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) ...that made me VERY VERY VERY happy!!

SO now. Im doing nothing. Sitting in my dorm room, procrastinating more research, debating wether or not to take a nap, and wondering what time I should go eat.
Yes. I guess you could say, the life of a college student.
God Bless. =)

Thanksgiving!!!!!

2008-11-12T18:19:00.002-06:00

SO!!..my friend Krystine's family is going to Pennsylvania for Thanksgiving...and they called her and told her to buy a ticket so she could go too...They also said that it would be ok if she were to invite me if she wanted!!..
SOOOOO!!!!!!!!...Im going to Pennsylvania for Thanksgiving!!!!!!!!!!!!..Im so excited!..That's one of the states that I've never been too!...

anyways!..
nothing else really
gettin ready to fix my schedule for next semester..and then some homework
...just the life of a college student!! =)

A Rainy Day..

2008-11-10T20:09:00.002-06:00

So today has been a VERY rainy day...all I wanted to do was climb under the covers and watch movies...unfortunatly I had class!!!...It was also VERY cold outside today...which isn't good. If it keeps on raining, and the temperature continues to drop, it will start snowing!!!!!..That's not really what I want to do with my weekend... =/
Anyways. Not much is happening around here. I went Blues Dancing last night..I am growing to love it more and more which seems impossible!!!!!...and one of the really good guys and girls thought I was doing excellent, which was super exciting to hear!!.. =)

So I talked to my dad about changing majors...Right now Im majoring in Worship Arts...but I've been thinking and praying about Psychology for about 3 weeks to a month now...I find human behavior very interesting, and It's been on my heart a lot lately. Im going to get a degree plan sheet on Wednesday so I can reorganize my schedule for next semester. I will have to take a foreign language, and Im going to take French...im so excited about this!!.I've wanted to learn French for a LONG time...I think it is such a pretty language...

Anyways, not much else going on...Eat, Sleep, Go to class, Dance and Homework...pretty much the life of a college student!! =)

Around campus...

2008-11-08T13:45:00.005-06:00

So here are a few pictures around campus. I don't have very many right now, but will try and take some more sometime soon. The campus is so beautiful, although they are doing a lot of construction around here at the moment. The picture on the left is of the Timko Barton (T.B.) building. This is the music building where most of my classes take place. The picture below on the right is of the Prayer Tower, which is in the background, and the T.B. again. And the picture below on the left is of T.B. while walking from my dorm.

Anyways. Life is great. I went Blues Dancing last night!!..It was so much fun!. I love to dance, and have a new passion for it...I want to dance all the time now... In fact we are going again tonight, and probably tomorrow night as well!!.. =)

It's a lot of fun when you get a guy who actually knows how to dance..They make you feel like you know what you are doing...and they make you look good!...

In other news..(this is a little late)...we have a new president-elect...Barak Obama..hmm. Im not exactly thrilled with the outcome..(I voted for Senator McCain)...but I know that God is in control..He will take care of his people...although I don't like the fact Mr. Obama won, the Bible says pray for your leaders...so that's what I continue to do....And I am alive to see history made...an African American president...that's pretty exciting... One of the teacher's found a quote that describes the situation well... "Rosa sat so Martin could walk. Martin walked so Barak could run."..it refers to Rosa parks not giving up her seat on the bus...so Martin Luther KingJr. could walk for peace/equality....so Barak Obama could run for president.

Anyways..the first basketball games are today...So I better get going..they start pretty soon..then Blues Dancing!....

P.S. GO EAGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

Playing Catch-Up!!

2008-11-07T14:26:00.000-06:00

Well!! Hey There!!..It's been a while hasen't it??!!!...
So much to talk about, so I better get started!!...

Hmm. What's been happening lately?..O yes...I am in full fledge swing of College Mode!!..Im attending ORal Roberts University and I absolutly LOVE it!!!....It's so much fun...I've made so many new friends...everyone here is so nice...It's absolutly amazing to be in a Christian environment 99% of the time!!...Most everyone is here because they WANT to be...not because they have to be...Anyways...right now I'm majoring in Worship Arts, or learning to be a praise and worship leader....but i've been thinking heavily recently about changing my major to Psychology, and minoring in Worship Arts...I don't know how to explain it, but lately I've had psychology on my heart...now I'm still praying about it, and

I have to talk to my dad...but IDK...it could be...

The past 6 months have been crazy...as you may recall back in May, a month before my BDAY exactly, my grandmother passed away...It was so heartbreaking, and I still miss her terribly..some days, to be honest, I really don't know what to do.... But I continue to lean on God...He is helping me make progress, and a hope that keeps me going is that I will get to see her again Someday!!..Which makes me so excited...It is so much different living without her...whenever I think about anything, somehow it always drifts back to my memories with her...They were so good. And I love to think about her. She was so sweet, Loved everyone, and was so precious....

..And then.. In July, I found out my mother moved out of the house, (She moved out while I was @ camp.)...This was devastating as well. Growing up in a home with both your parents in the same home all your life, and then all of a sudden them getting a divorce....WOW...but I knew it was coming...My relationship with my mother is not well at all. In fact this past summer..right after I graduated....Our relationships status was so bad, that If my grandmother would've been alive, I would've moved in with her in a heartbeat and stopped talking to my mother....and my father would've been ok with it...Boy would she be disappointed with my parents if she was here today!!...anyways..Im working through this...MY HOUSE...I still consider to be where my dad live..because it is MY HOME...and my mothers house is just my mother's house. It's still so hard to deal with the divorce factor right now, that I can not consider my mother's house, my home as well....but gradually God is dealing with me...and my heart...
So we will not dwell on these things right now...

As for some crazy awesome new skills I've learned while @ college....
..well. My youth pastor and friends say that they can see a difference in my piano skills, and how they've improved... yay!!! =)
..AND!!..I've learned how to dance!!..SWING DANCE!!!...it's so awesome!!..I've learned 2 versions of swing...Lindy Hop and East Coast Style Swing...I've also learned a Blues/Tango fusion, and to Blues Dance....which I'm doing tonight!!! =)

As for my school work..overall, it's pretty easy...
Oral Communications is my least fav. class, and I am working hard to bring up my grade!!..In fact I have a test in an hour, that I've been studying for all week!!...

well, Ill put some pictures of the campus and stuff on here soon!!..ttyl!! =)
Keep the Faith and God Bless!

So Much!!!!

2008-07-10T14:58:00.000-05:00

So much has happened in the last couple of months. Where do I begin...well I guess I'll start with my grandmother.

As I'd written before, she'd been ill..she had fallen last August, and it just went downhill from there. Although there were several times we thought she was gone, she hung in there...But on May 12, just 5 days before her 97th birthday, she passed away. She was a fabulous woman, and I love and miss her very much...people say that time heals everything, but i really dont know if it will. I had spent just about every day of everysummer with her, and use to spend almost everyday out of the year with her. She was Amazing. She loved everyone, even people she had just met. It's so hard. Everytime I do something, I always think of her. Everything reminds me of her, and i guess thats not bad, because i can rememeber all the good times we had....But since she has died, it feels like i've lost my best friend. Im absolutly heartbroken. I really dont know how long it will take before i can really talk about her, or think about her without crying. But i do know, since she has passed on, my life hasnt been the same without her. I think these days im more quiet than i was before...yes i still have my teenage moments where im very goofy and silly, but i catch myself being quiet more than i use to be.

On an oppostie note, only 28 days before I move into my dorm room!!..Im so excited!!!..I will be attending Oral Roberts University....I only know 1 of my friends that goes there, but i've met many people on facebook that are going there in the fall. So it will be fun. Im really excited..Although Im still working on the scholarships. Ive received a few, but Im suppose to audition in the music department for a big one. The Cherokee Nation will also pay for my housing, so there's a few thousand less that I'll have to worry about. But I'm really excited!!..I have 2 sets of aunts and uncles that I will be about 5-10 minutes away from..And then my dad's business partner and his family lives only about 2 minutes away!!...Plus i have a cousin who lives in Broken Arrow, and my old pastor that retired last fall, him and his wife are moving to B.A. also!!...I still have to get all of my stuff tho. I found this comforter and sheets to match @ Wal Mart that I really like, and ill get towels and some organizer things...and some food..lol!!..They supply us with fridges and microwaves...yay!...
well so Im ready to go to college, but im not ready to leave my dad.. I will miss getting to run around with him very much..although i wont be that far from the house...but still!!

Some more exciting news!!....I get to go on a mission trip to L.A.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. Im so excited!...we will be working 3 days @ the dreamcenter, and then for 2-3 days we will be sightseeing!!..So places like the walk of fame, hard rock cafe-hollywood...HOLLYWOOD!!!....THE BEACH!!...here's some wishful thinking for ya..we might get a picture with a star!!..lol... who knows...anyways..ill have to miss 2 days of school, but i think it will definitly be worth it....
well..ive gotta go!...I have p&w practice tonight....and then i might go run a mile or so...well ill ttyl!..

Maybe its all a bad dream...

2008-05-15T09:01:00.000-05:00

Well, my great grandmother died Monday. Im so upset. She was my favorite person in the whole wide world!!...She was the best ever!!...She was 96 and would've been 97 on Saturday...I loved her so much...I have so many memories with her...most of them make me laugh and cry at the same time..
One time (I was about 4 or 5) and I was standing on the couch looking out the window at the cows. I looked at her and I said, "Those are my cows." She said, "O really, and just where did you get them?" Without missing a beat, I replied "WalMart." I got them from WalMart because back then I thought everything came from WalMart. =) This was her favorite story. And she told it to everyone who visited. She also would tell it over and over again to me. Its also one of my favorite memories...
One of the other things I remember doing quite often is whenever I would see my parents drive up I would run and hide behind the LAZboy chair and Id tell Grandma, "Dont tell them where Im at!!"I wanted to stay with my grandma for forever....Of course it was the same chair Id hide behind everyday... but she never told them. =)
I loved her so much...I loved everything about her. Her eyes, her smile, her personality, and her little body. I loved it all..
I loved the movie night that we would have..(me, Jana, Trent, Aunt Kathy, and Grandma.) We would all go to grandma's house and spend the night. We would stay up and watch movies (usually disney channel!) and we'd all eat a bunch of popcorn.
I loved getting to spend the night with Grandma.
One thing I remember doing the most @ Gma's is baking cakes. Whenever I would go over to her house, we would bake a cake together. And the next one was always better than the last one!...Grandma fed everyone who ever entered the door @ her house. When me and my dad would go over to her house she would ask, "Aren't you guys hungry? Can't I feed you?" If you said yes, she would hop up and fix you something to eat. If you said no, she would ask you over and over until you said yes. Well one time my dad and I said yes were hungry so she feed us. Well after cleaning up the dishes we sat down to talk with her again. And she turned to my dad( who is a little plump) and said, "Honey, Are you watching your weight? Im worried about you." ....this makes me laugh everytime I hear it...Dad wanted to say, well Grandma its because you are always feedin me...but he didnt....he probably would've got slapped if he did say it...Grandma might've weighed 86lbs, but she could still woop him if she wanted...She was as stubborn as a Missiouri mule, and as tough as an old boot......She was the best.
Well today is her funeral...I really dont want this day to happen. I wish it was all a bad dream that I could wake up from...I wish I could go over to her house right now and she would open the door and look up @ me and smile that pretty smile..and say I love you so much....But thats not how its going to happen...The family lunch is @ 12 and then the funeral is @ 2...Me and my friend Brice are playing the first song @ the funeral...we decided to play HOMESICK by MERCYME....and hopefully I can get through it without crying...
it just feels like everything is coming apart....I mean what am I going to do without my little grandma...My aunt Lea said that she was talking to grandma one time after grandpa died. Grandma said that it never got easier after grandpa died, even tho everyone said it would....well how do I know its gonna get easier...
I know she's in a better place..and she's with Grandpa...I know Ill get to see her again one day...But I miss her so much...its unreal...and its only been 4 days.....
Well i better go get ready...

Oh and Grandma. I love you the mostest!!!!!
=) All my love!!
XOXOXO
~Aubrey

College Visit!!

2008-05-09T20:32:00.000-05:00

Ok...so I have some new information. Instead of attending the University of Oklahoma, and being an official Sooner Girl, I have decided to go to Oral Roberts University.
I think that I will like it much better at ORU than I would @ OU.

So I went down this past Tuesday and took a campus tour. I got to meet with my admissions counselor, and he was extremely nice..(not to mention kinda cute!!.) but that's another story now isnt it!..lol. Anyways..everyone I met was extremely nice, and i enjoyed it very much.

My tour guide was a sophomore student, and her name was Kate. She was super sweet, and I enjoyed her company very much!..She was showing us (me and my dad) around the campus, and she told us that every building on the ORU campus is symbolic in some way. For example, @ one of the buildings, their was a fountain. @ the top of the fountain it was triangular. This had one big spout and poured down to a layer below. The layer below had 12 little spouts that poured out into yet another layer. The layer @ the top represented Jesus. He poured out all his knoweledge and teaching into the twelve disciples (represented by the 12 spouts). The disciples then poured out what they learned to the rest of the world (the layer @ the bottom). I thought this was really neat. Next time I visit the campus I will have to remember to take my camera and get a picture of it!....But every building had symbolisim like that.
So I am officially an ORU Golden Eagle. I also got to see the chapel while I was visiting. It was absolutly beautiful. It was so big!!!!!!!!!!..I loved it!

Anyways. On to other news. Only 14 days until I graduate(weekends included)and its 10 days without the weekends!!...yay!!..I am excited, but at the same time I am extremely nervous....Some days I wish I could stay in high school for forever. And other days I cant wait to get out of that place!!..

Prom is tomorrow... =/ I have mixed feelings about that...I really cant wait to get it over with!!...But I hope it is fun...I went and got my nails done today..i really like them, although it is tough to adjust to fake nails....it also makes it a little difficult to play the piano!..But I have to work with it..They look very pretty though. I had the french tips put on..and then the girl painted a red stripe across them and then put a flower on each of my ring fingers...They are very cute, and I will have to take a picture of them before I pull them off... My hair appointment is at 9 or 930 in the morning, and I am very excited about it!!..I have a tiara to put in my hair!....I know im a princess all the time, but now everyone will know!!!!!!!... =P I think the dressing up part will be fun, and I pray that the prom part will be fun!...i dont have a date, but im hoping that it will be ok....I will get to dance with all my girls!!..lol..

I have been patiently waiting for a new car...and hopefully its almost here!!..Im trying to talk dad into letting me get a mustang!!...I really want one!!..I think we might go look @ cars next Saturday night!!..We passed a dealership the other day, and we got to stop @ it, and he let me sit in a convertible!!...I loved it!!...I sat in it for 20 minutes and then he had to literally DRAG me out of it!!!!!!!...Although when I get one, it probably wont be a convertible. My Grandpa would think my dad's gone crazy and probably have him committed it i did get 1!!

Well thats about it for a while...only 33 days till my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!..yay!!!!!!

XOXOXO
~Aubrey

College doubts....

2008-03-02T14:51:00.000-06:00

Ok...so as I said earlier I am an Official Sooner Girl!!..and I love it!!..although I have had my doubts...I don't really know where to start, so I'll just jump in.

I've had many doubts about attending OU in the fall. I mean, first of all, Im Daddy's Little Girl...what am I going to do without him..Im use to getting to see him everyday, and to go from that to seeing him once maybe twice a month is a big change.

Second of all Im afraid of loosing my best friend.. His name is Brice. This is a picture of us together...He's only a freshman, but he really is my best friend. He is always there for me, and we do everything together. Im afraid that when I go off to college he'll find a new best friend...Im afraid that Ill be replaced. And I cant handle that. I shouldn't worry..We made a promise that we would call each other at least twice a week to talk to each other...but still. But We have the kind of friendship we can tell each other anything.

It was very funny the other day. We just got a new youth pastor 2 months ago, so he is still learning about all of us @ church...Well..Brice and I both play in the band @ church. He plays guitar, I the piano..So anyways, I had to run Brice back to his house because he 4got his picks for the guitar...Well I had just put lotion on from Bath and Body Works that was suppose to smell like chocolate and orchids...well Brice thought it smelled like Carmex...so he started calling me chapstick...well I was arguing with him that it didnt as we were walking out the door...we had been going on for about 10 minutes...we were almost out the door, and Pastor James(P.J.) said are you sure you two aren't married...lol..we both looked @ each other and started laughing...well we went to his house and got the picks, and when we got back to the youth building, we were picking @ each other again..and P.J. looked @ us and said, "Are you two still @ it?" it was so funny...

That's the kind of relationship we have. We go together like PB and J..I promise this is what God did..He looked down and saw me...said Wow she's kinda boring..he added Brice to my life, looked down again, and said..That's AMAZING!!!!...

I know with a relationship like that I shouldn't be worried..but I can't help it...I guess it's human nature.

I even talked to him about me going to ORU, and he thinks that I should go ahead and go to OU...I shouldn't pass up the chance..and I think he's right...It's just gonna be hard to say goodbye the last night I get to spend with him. I cry everytime I think about it...Like Now..lol...

I told him that, and he told me not to cry cause it was gonna make him cry..and I still have like 6 months left before I go..

But even though Im worried, I know God will take care of everything...He wont let me loose my best friend just when I need him most.....

Other than that, Im really excited about OU...I've already started making a list of things I need..Including my new car...Im praying for a powder blue new body style mustang...Dad said it could possibly be my graduation/18th birthday present..Im also trying to become a football trainer for them next year. I pray to God that works out..I know I would have so much fun...I won't know my roommate tho..Everyone that Im friends with from my school that's going to OU already has a roommate...So I guess it's gonna be a suprise...

Im praying that God gives me a good one....someone that's a Christian and easy to get along with. I don't know if I can handle having a bad roommate and being away from my bestest friend all at the same time..

Im staying positive though...this is how my Aunt met one of her best friends she has now..they were roommates in college together...so it will be good...

Speaking of Graduation...only 11 weeks left!!!...I am excied about that!!..Although there is one thing...my graduation is the same night as my cousin's...I know it stinks...Im so bummed..It means our family will be separated...My Mama( my dad's mom) will probably go to her graduation..and my Papa and Sylvia(dad's dad and stepmom) are planning on coming to mine...But my Aunt Lea and her family will probably go to Jana's too..I was talking to my dad about this and he simply said, "well, you were born to a son, and not a daughter.." I guess it's true...Aunt Lea and Aunt Kathy have a special relationship...so o well...

But Im having a big graduation party @ my house after graduation..a lot of my mom's side of the family are coming...and quite a few from my dad's side...

Sooner Born and Sooner Bred..

2008-02-18T16:12:00.000-06:00

.........Sooner Raised and Sooner Dead..Boomer Sooner.

These are some of the words to the famous OU fight song...a song that I will be hearing a lot of VERY soon!!!
That's right!!...What Im trying to say, is that I have been accepted to OU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As you can tell, Im kinda excited!!...ok.Im really excited!!!!!!!!!!!.

Ive always wanted to go to OU, and now Im finally gonna have my chance...
Well, Ill elaborate later.
XOXO~Aubrey

Winter Wonderland....

2007-12-12T12:56:00.000-06:00

Welp. WE had a BIG ice storm...AGAIN!!...it was very bad. We lost electricity on Sunday at noon. We finally got it back yesterday afternoon!!...So I am back to the modern world.
I am for certain that I would've made a LOUZY pioneer woman. I refused to use the bathroom in the"Great Outdoors" when we had no electricity. For 1 it was FREEZING cold!..2 I try to refrain from using the outdoors as my own personal bathroom, no matter how great it is!..
I also was going crazy without the T.V. and Internet. Losing electricity shows me how much that I really do appreciate the priveledges that I have.
I also was finally able to take a shower again!..PRAISE THE LORD!!...
I hate going without showers. But the best part about the shower was, it was HOT!

WE are forcasted to get some snow now...snow doesn't bug me as much as the ice does, although if I had it my way, It would be about 80 degrees right now!..
I have been out of school 3 days this week. It has been a nice break, and I never thought I would say this, but I want to go back. THe more snow days we have, the more we have to add on at the end of the year. And, well, IM READY TO GRADUATE!...Plus, Im ready to get back to the powerlifting boys. Yes, I miss school, but I miss Erin, and the powerlifting boys more!!!...

But I finally get to look cute again tonight!!...I get to go to church!!..YES!!..I love going to church, and that means that I have to dress up in my preppy clothes. Or my cute clothes!..lol..so I get to take another HOT shower, and fix myself up, so I look cute!!..
(at this point, there can never be too many showers that I take!!!)

Welp, I'll ttyl!!
XOXO, Aubrey!
~13 days till Christmas!

It's been a while....

2007-12-08T10:49:00.000-06:00

Okay so it's been longer than a while...its been a long time....but anywho..lol...

Football has come to an end. We finished the regular season with only 1 loss. And we made it to playoffs...we were among the top 8 teams in Oklahoma in class 3-A football..It was so exciting. We really did have dreams of becoming state champs. But for some reason, we had an off night..as everyone does once in a while.

There were approximatly 50 football boys once all the freshmen moved up. And I love MOST OF EM...they are so dear to me.

They put me and the other 3 watergirls through a lot of stuff, but it was worth it. Not to mention that we gave it right back. No matter how much they picked on us, we loved every minute of it.

We played on a Saturday night. After the game all the football boys were crying, especially the Seniors. I started crying right then and there..when I realized that I wouldnt get to spend time in practice with all of them again. I was crying in front everyone. I left the fieldhouse crying, cried all the way home, and cryed myself to sleep. And i bet you can guess what i did the next day. Yup, I cried...almost anytime someone said anything to me about football at church...I cried..I cried before church, during church, and after church...just at spuratic moments...It was the most I remember crying in a LONG time....

It was really hard checking in football equipment, the Monday following the game. The Seniors had to check everything in, and they couldn't reserve anything for next year. It was so hard, and I almost started crying. AGAIN!!....

Someone told me that i was spending too much time with the football boys, and that my life had become focused around football. I told them that when i committed to something I stuck to it..But i figured it up one day, and counting the hours and days I got to spend with my football boys...well I let u see for yourself.

I spent 90 days with the football boys. That includes: spring training, Summer 2ADays, season Practice, 2 scrimmages, 12 football games, and the 1 funday that we had.

I spent over 350 hours with the football boys. I'd say I was definitly committed. But I loved every second of it.

I still miss them very much, and whenever I see my favorite ones, I always give them a hug...and tell them I miss them.

Onto something else. Thanksgiving was,..hmm..how do you say it,...AMAZING!!!!!!...I was full for like a week, and get full at the thought of it.

We had dinner at my Aunt Kathy's house. And boy, can she ever cook...but she had made something special for me that i had requested.

About a month before Thanksgiving I asked her if she would make a blackberry cobbler this year since I don't like Pecan of Pumpkin pie. And she said she would think about it.

Well, after I finished eating, I walked into the kitchen, and she walked in with a BLACKBERRY COBBLER!!..OMG...it was THE BEST EVER!!...

This was also my 2 new cousins, B and N, first Thanksgiving, since they have come home from Russia. It was all very new to them, and they loved it. Neither one had ever had blackberry cobbler before, and I let B try some, and he loved it almost as much as I do. He sat down, and I guarantee ate as much of the cobbler as I did...So for Christmas, I think I am going to make a Blackberry cobbler for just me and him!!...

Speaking of Christmas, Christmas is going to be at my house this year.

Normally on Christmas Eve day I have 2 Christmases. In the morning, we go to my papa and stepgrandma's( my dad's dad and stepmom) house. All my dad's family comes, and we have Christmas Brunch. Then on Christmas Eve night, we go to my Mama's house.(my dad's mom)..and all my dad's family comes. We have so much fun. My Aunt Kathy makes Lasagna for dinner, and we read the Christmas story of Baby Jesus before we open presents.

Well this year, both Christmas Eve Christmases are at my house. My papa's and mama's.

I don't know why we're having papa's at our house this year. But Mama's house is really small. Plus she had cancer this year, and get tired very easily.

So every one will be at our house all day. My mom's brother, Uncle Marvin, and my 2 cousins are coming in from Pennsylvania, the Sunday before Christmas.

On Christmas Day me and mom and dad, and then Uncle Marvin and Megan and Alana, will open presents at my house. Then we will go down to Uncle Paul and Aunt Amanda's house later that afternoon. I always love going down there. Aunt Amanda overdoes herself, and we always end up with a "Martha Stewart" type Christmas.

Then the day after Christmas, my mom's other Brother, Uncle Warren, and his wife, Aunt Jerusha, and there 3 kids...will come up and spend a couple of days with us.It should be quite fun!!..

We are still in the process of decorating. We are trying to decorate EVERYTHING this year, since everyone will be at our house. We have the tree up and all the lights on it, but we are still looking for our ornaments. Our stockings are hung..(with care..I might add!!)..and there is garland EVERYWHERE!!...my mom has made bows for the wreaths and garland. Our lights over the mantle haven't been hung yet, but we will get to it. There is going to be Garland with lights on the piano as well. My mom also bought some 4 foot blow up peguins for outside, although she hasn't put them up yet, in fear that my lovely outside dog, Frankie, will end up thinking they are a chew toy!!...

Dad and I are suppose to go Christmas shopping on the 15th. THis should be fun because dad dreads going to the mall, and well, that's where I have to shop!!!...

Christmas should be fun this year, I am so excited. My cousins, B and N, have never had a real Christmas, and you should expect to see lots of pictures!!...

In other news, I STILL havn't got a new car. I've been about 130 days without my car. Although I am driving one of my dad's pickups. It gets me around, but this time without my car makes me appreciate the time that I had it. And there's nothing like having your own car. But dad has called Gerald Tipton to see what a Toyota 4runner would cost, and we are planning on going and talking to him soon. We are also going to look for 1 when we go Christmas shopping on the 15th. And may even test drive 1 or 2!!!..yay!!..

I promise I will start posting regulary again!!...

XOXO, Aubrey

Changes at Church

2007-09-09T13:56:00.001-05:00

Well our Senior Pastor at church is retiring on October 14th. The elders, board members, of our church decided that our youth pastor now would become our new senior pastor. When I found this out, I was happy, but I immediatly started crying. I have formed a relationship with my youth pastor, his wife, and kids, that not many people at our church have; so I was sad to see them leave the teen department. But them moving up to "big church" means that we get a new youth pastor.

In fact there was a y.p. canidate here this week with his fiance. They are from Cincinnati, OH; his name is Ryan, and her name is Shaina. They are such a sweet couple and said they had a fabulous time while they were here. I don't know if they are the right people, but I believe that God knows if they are. Whether they are or not, we met some great people this week, who I hope we will get to know well.

2 and 0

2007-09-08T14:20:00.000-05:00

WEll, we had our second football game last night. We played the Nowata Ironmen...and my Hornets kinda had me worried during the first half again!!...

During the whole first half Nowata led; the score being 0 to 3...but again they must've had an excellent "inspirational" talk that got them going in the 2nd half.

The final score ended at 14 to 3. Vinita!!!...

Oh, but I forgot to mention, that it rained almost the whole game!!!..not with lightening, or even a heavy rain, but it was just a steady little rain throughout almost the whole game...we were "wet" by the end of the game...lol...neways, that's about all..ttyl!

2007-09-01T10:12:00.000-05:00

Okay, We had our first football game last night, and since I am 1 of 4 water girls, It was my job to keep them hydrated, and the sweat off their faces.

But being the first game of the year, we also had a pep assembly. Erin, Erica, and I were so excited, because this year, being trainers and all, we got to sit with the football boys!!..and were recognized...The pep assemblies are always so much fun; there's always a contest between all the classes to see who is loudest and proudest!!..lol...V-I-C-T-O-R-Y, that the Senior Battle Cry...that's right, we were the loudest...and it only took us 4 years!!lol...

Anyways, I had so much fun. We beat the Jay Bulldogs 41 to 14....I knew we were going to do fine, although my Hornets did have us worried at the end of the 1st half. Evidently they had a great 1/2 time speech, because we went from 14 to 41 all in the 2nd half. Oh it was so much fun.. Here are the 4 trainers..from left to right...Erica, the junior...and then Erin, Becca, and Me...the 3 Seniors...we have so much fun together, and laugh so much...They are pretty much some of the bestest friends that I have....Well that's about all just thought I'd share the great news with you!

Go HORNETS!!! ....lol...

Doing Better

2007-08-30T16:06:00.000-05:00

Ok, so my Grandmother is actually doing much better for someone in her situation. They moved her to a nursing home, what will be a week tomorrow. Although upset about this, she is still doing considerably better.

My aunt had told her about 3 days before they put her in the N.H. that they were going to do so, but she did not remember. And when she finally did realize where she was, she told them that they shouldn't have done this without telling her. My aunt tried to explain that they had told her, but my G-ma also said they still shouldn't have done this to her. My aunt asked her, "Well what where we suppose to do, take you home, throw you on the couch, and say 'There you are?'..." My G-ma replied, "No, you could've taken me and pushed me off a cliff. It would've been better than this."...Although this was somewhat of a sad comment, she does, atleast, have a little bit of her sense of humor back.

Thanks for all the prayers. and TTYL

Fly to Jesus

2007-08-25T17:47:00.000-05:00

Well, my grandmother still isn't doing too well. They moved her to a nursing home yesterday, and she's not doing too well. She keeps talking about the cemetary, and asking to see people. They don't think she will last too much longer; they keep saying her body is so worn out.

A song comes to mind thinking about it. It's called Untitled Hymn by Chris Rice. One of the lyrics says "And with your final heartbeat/ You kiss the world goodbye/ Go in peace and laugh on glory's side/Fly to Jesus/ Fly to Jesus and Live. It makes me cry everytime I listen to it, but it's one of my favorite songs. It reminds me that God is there throught everything; even this terrible situation.

I don't know what I will do without my dear sweet Grandmother. There will be a huge hole in my heart, but I know she will be in a much better place, with my Grandfather, and our great Savior.

Thanks for all the prayers.

Everything seems so wrong.

2007-08-23T09:32:00.001-05:00

Do you ever feel like suddenly everything is going wrong?..Well that's kinda how I'm feeling now. My great grandmother isn't doing too good.

I called my dad after church last night and asked him if he had gone and saw her. He said he hadn't but told me that my Papa said she was getting weaker. I immediatly started crying. He told me he was gonna go see her and that he'd meet me at the hospital. When I got there she was sitting on the bedside commode..(or however you spell it..) and was in so much pain...
It's so sad to see her in that much pain...But I don't know what I'd do without her...But Lord knows I don't want her to suffer.

They're going to move her into a nursing home tomorrow, and when my aunt told her the other day, she said that she could just see her face change and the realization come to her. It's so sad, it makes me cry everytime I think about it. Because part of me knows that she won't do that good in a nursing home. She'd rather be at home.

But all we can do is pray. And well, that's one of the things I do best, and enjoy doing. So please pray for her.

I guess that's all. More later.

High School....AND College??!!!!

2007-08-19T17:34:00.000-05:00

Well since I'm a Senior this year, I decided to take a couple college classes earning me a few hours...(actually ten to be exact...at least the 1st semester..)
I am taking Biology I, Comp I, and American History..(online..)..

Yesterday was the welcome back day at NEO, so the book store was open to get the books for my classes. One of my friends from Welch is also taking classes online, so they were waiting inline too...well anyways, I got my books, ID, and parking permit...I have to go back tomorrow and pay my tuition....classes actually start tomorrow, and so, I guess I'm ready...

Back to High School for a minute....Calculus has gotten a little better...probably because I actually came home and studied...and because Dad gave me an exceptional motivational speech..(or lecture, if you want to look at the glass half empty..lol)..either ways, IT MOTIVATED ME!!!.... =)

So far being a Senior is great...see ya... =)

Senior Life So Far...and more!

2007-08-17T23:35:00.000-05:00

Well being a Senior is pretty fun...getting to park in SR. parking, getting to cut in front of the underclassmen, and not to mention being pretty popular...Plus I get to sleep in till about 8:30 everyday...(I mean I don't have to be at school till 10:40)...so this part is pretty good. It's the concurrent classes I'm worried about. They start Monday and I don't have my books yet; but neither do have the other SR.'s..but I'm not so much worried about College Bio. and Comp 1...it's the ONLINE American History that I'm worried about. I might have to get my book for AH Monday morning and then order the other books for the other 2 classes online. Which is what I very well may do.

My classes at school are doing great. I only have 3 so that helps a little...(actually that helps A LOT!)...and 2 of them aren't even that hard; Chorus and Boys Athletics..(football trainer/ water girl..)...my tough class is Calculus. I think it might eventually get better, but for now, I don't like it all that much. Maybe it's because I'm so use to being able to get stuff done so easily, and I actually have to work on it...but I think it will get better...(I'm praying!)

Speaking of Boys Athletics, we had our first football scrimmage tonight...it was really fun. I've grown to love the other trainers...specially Erin and Becca..(probably because they are seniors..)...and I've also grown fond of the football boys, the are really nice to us...(but probably because we basically work our butts off for them...and b/c we're their only source of water during practices/games...but who cares, they still love us!!!!)...

On another note, my 96 year old Great Grandmother fell and broke her hip last Sunday...actually they admitted her for a fractured pelvis..(according to the 1 xray)...but the other day they did a CT Scan on her, and realized that she actually broke her hip, fractured her pelic bone in 2 places, and basically crushed her pelvis...PLEASE be praying for her...she's so small and frail..when they admitted her she weighed 84 pounds...the doctors said that it normally takes a young person months to heal from this amount of trauma...but we're believeing and praying she will be okay. She is doing much better..(Thank the Lord)...she's eating now... they couldn't get her to eat for a few days...but my mother got her to eat Chicken Noodle Soup today, and Orange Sherbert yesterday; My Aunt got her to eat some Jello yesterday; and my Dad got her to drink a small Braum's strawberry shake...so she is doing exceptionally well for someone in her condition...

Well, that's about all..ttyl!

Football Practice at the end of the Rainbow???

2007-08-09T22:10:00.000-05:00

Today's practices were pretty good...the weather was really nice this morning. In fact, we even got sprinkled on...but while we were in football practice, before the rain, a beautiful rainbow came out, and we all took time to notice it...The rainbow is a reminder that God will never destroy the world with a flood again..(for the few of you who didn't know that!!..lol)...but could it also mean a winning season for the famous Hornets???...(just a thought to ponder.)..

This evenings practice was a little tougher than the mornings. It was much hotter...we started sweating before practice ever started....but we did our duty and kept our football boys well hydrated!!!.. =)

One of the cool things about practice, is that the head football coach's wife brings popsicles in the morning for the football players and trainers...But what's really neat, is that our superintendent brought us popsicle "stingers" in the evening....(We call them "stingers" because we're the Hornets who are expected to sting everyone we play this year...)...so we've got to have a popsicle at almost every practice!!...I will be spoiled by the end of football season...(And it never fails, I spilled popsicle on me everytime I've had one this week!!!)

2-A-Days to Football

2007-08-07T21:16:00.000-05:00

Well..this year I decided to be a football trainer; for the one and only famous VHS Hornets!!!!....We started 2-a-days today...it was really quite interesting and I had more fun than expected.

There are 3 other trainers besides myself...Becca and Erin, they're both Seniors too...and then Erica, she's a junior, but we still like her..lol..

The first practice was at 8 o'clock this morning...that was fun...(after getting to sleep in until at least eight all summer this was a big change)...I got there at about 5 till...I was pretty early....but then the coaches told us we needed to be ready to go by 8...so to be there no later than 7:30...uggh....oh well...the early bird gets the worm...right??!! =) Practice lasts about two hours...its not too bad on us trainers...

After the morning practice, I had to run a few errands for dad...(more than a few actually!!)...and then I needed to eat...I hadn't ate all day, and I think that was the reason for my ginormous headache!!...so in telling Dad that I had this headache, he told me that I could go home and sit under the air conditioner!!!... =) (I have officially become a wuss when it comes to the sweet A.C.!!!)
Later I headed back to our 6 o'clock evening practice we had..it was again another 2 hours...but for some reason, the evening practice wasn't as bad...but I haven't a clue why...

At about the end of practice, our Superintendent showed up and had a special treat for not only the football players and coaches, but for the trainers as well!!....we got POPSICLES!!...you have no idea how long it has been since I have had a popsicle!!...it was so good...and I even spilled it on my like I use to when I was a kid!!lol....

Anyways, all in all, practice was good. The football boys are great to get along with; the coahes are nice; and the other 3 trainers are such great friends!!...It made for a great day, no matter how tired I am...

Life outside the Country.

2007-08-06T20:16:00.000-05:00

This summer I've learned new things about myself. I had the amazing oppurtunity to go to New York City. That is a big change compared to where I come from.

Okay, let me start from where you can understand a little better.

Our Church/Youth Group took 11 people on a Missions trip to Brooklyn, back in June. We went out with Metro Ministries (also known as Yogi Bear) and did Sidewalk Sunday School with kids from all over. There were actually 16 different teams that went out, but my team went to the Bronx, a.k.a "the Projects", both days. I had an incredible time with all the little ones. There were some of the most adorable kids I had ever seen. The missions trip part taught and showed me how much I am blessed.

Anyways, we stayed in Brooklyn for 2.5 days, but after that we had the luxury to go sightseeing and staying in Manhattan for 2.5 days. We had a PHENOMENAL time here. It was so different than were I come from. I mean 3 million people on 1 block compared to 300 people tops who actually live here. It was just amazing. But the thing that makes me wonder, is that I actually could see myself living in a place like that...It's so weird. I love living on the farm, but sometimes I wonder what's outside of it. I can't hardly think about it without crying though. I mean I'm the 8th generation on the land that we own/live. I look at all the hard work my dad, grandad and great-grandad have done, and I feel like I would be letting them down if I go off and leave it. I'm about the only grandkid that even shows interest in running/living on it. But I still can't help but wonder....

This feeling may go away after I get out of college. I may not be able to wait to move back to the farm.

My dad tells me the story of when he was 17 and he couldn't wait to get off the farm and go live in the city. But then I look at him now and see that the farm is what he loves to do. He hates going to his other job in Tulsa and would quite in a heartbeat.

For now, I don't know. But God will take care of everything, this is one thing that I am sure of.

A New Beginning

2007-07-17T21:47:00.000-05:00

OK...so I'm going to be a Senior this year!!..This brings mixed emotions to me....I'm excited because I get to go off to college, but I'm scared..not about having to make new friends, I already had to do that when I transfered schools my freshman year....see the old school I went to only went to 8th grade, then in highschool you have to transfer..It was me and one other person out of my class of 14 that went to Vinita....I had to make lots of new friends..But I did, and I love them....so I'm not scared about leaving my friends...It's the getting out on my own...deciding what to do with the rest of my life...I mean Aug. 17 is the last first day of school and the beginning of the rest of my life.

And to top it all off, my Bestest friend in the whole world is leaving and going to college...Ok so you might think that I should learn to do stuff on my own...well I can live with that, but after all she is my Best Friend...She's only going to Okmulgee, but still she'll be in school almost year round...when will I have time to see her??...I'm happy for her, don't get me wrong, but I just don't want her to go off and forget about me.

Okay that's all my feelings I feel like expressing right now...ttyl.

About Me

2007-07-14T22:28:00.000-05:00

Okay...so a lot of people in my family have been starting blogs so I decided to start one too...They say that people that write and express theire feelings are happier..I just like writing...so here it goes.

I live on a farm in rural Oklahoma...you can't even call it a town because their is no post office..it's more like a village. It has 3 stop signs, a convience store, beer shack, and fire department/ambulance barn...oh and the school...that's what downtown consists of...

Anyways...I help my dad with the chores around the farm...we have about 300 head of Mama cows, and 200 babies...that's a lot in case you don't know....

I love going to church, and playing the piano for my youthgroup...we have way too much fun. Even though I have fun at church, it's ALL about GOD...we give everything to him...we are so blessed in so many ways...He's the reason I get up in the morning...when the band plays, we pray everytime before praying and ask that he will open the hearts of the kids...but we also tell him that we play to an audience of one...and all we do is lead kids in praise and worship...

Anyways...I play golf, and I will be a trainer for the football team at school this year....it will be TOO much fun!!....

That's all I can think of right now...ttyl