Does It Ever.....

...get any easier. It's been over eight months since my great grandmother died. Yet, I still miss her terribly. I think Im getting over her passing, and then Ill see a picture of me with her, and I just start balling like a big baby. I mean It's not as bad as when she first died. That was terrible. I would actually have classified myself as a person in a state of depression for a couple of weeks. I cried myself to sleep every night for a while. Yes, that was terrible. And I do know that I shouldn't be sad, because Ill get to see her again someday; and Im so grateful for that. But I think of all the good times that we had together, and I can't help be sad. I mean I spent A LOT of my childhood with her, and a lot of my memories involve her. And it's hard to think that I don't get to make anymore with her. I remember this story very distinctly. My aunt asked her one time if it ever got any easier after my great grandpa died. (this was about 10 years after) Grandma responded no. Now I know they were married, and that is a big difference from being her grand-daughter. but still.
Well I do believe that eventually I will be able to look at a picture of us and not cry. The question being when. They say that time heals everything. And with a lot of help from God, I believe this will be true. Someday the hole in my heart will not be as big as it is today. And I do thank God for that.


Sorry about my rampage there. I was having a moment.
In other news, School is going well, although, Im just ready for summer. That's all there is to it. And it is SOOOOO cold here!!..I mean single digits!..and we had a little snow. hmm. That's how I feel about it. I told dad yesterday "Bring on summer and hay baling!" You know that it's bad when Im begging to work. lol. ;)
And...I also get my braces off in like 16 days or so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...Im so excited!..Im gonna eat corn on the cob for the first time in like 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!
..I also went dancing last night. It was mainly a practice session thing that Krystine and I did with one of our good friends. It was so much fun!..I hadn't danced since I think before Thanksgiving!.It was good!...
well. Chapel is in a little while, so I better go get ready!. Toodles. Have a wonderful weekend!!!!! =)

Back to School.

Well. I had a wonderful Christmas break. I got to spend time with most of my family members, and see ones that I hadn't seen in a while. It was good. New Year's Eve was A BLAST!!..I spent it with all of my friends from home @ my youth pastor's house!...It was so much fun, and I have so many memories just from that one night!... =) anyways. Then on New Year's Day my cousin wanted me to come help her redo her room....well. that was fun. let's just say, that I was VERY tired, and she did more work than I did!! ;)
Anyways, the rest of the break was awesome, I really enjoyed getting to hang out with all of my friends from church. Especially my bestest friend!!.. He's amazing!... ;)
SO now, I am back @ school. At the very moment, doing nothing...lol. who'dathunkit??!! probably gettin ready to watch a movie!.. funfun! =)
But I do have a relativly hard schedule...not hard, but Im gonna like it!! =) well. That movie is calling me. TTYL! ;)

Home Sweet Home.

=)
I am ecstatic about being at home. As we speak, or as I type rather, I am enjoying some homemade party mix at my Papa and Mimi's house. mmmm. yummy! =)
This is the beginning of a very long break that involves a LOT of food. hmm. I better start excercising again before I go back to school! hehe. =P
(the dreaded HPE will get me if I don't!!>>HPE=Health and Physical Exercise)..BLAGGH!!!
anyways. I've been home for 3 days now and loved every bit of it! On Wed. I ran around with my dad, had lunch, and then went to my old high school. I saw my old choir teacher and talked with her for a little bit. The choir was practicing the Messiah chorus, one of the songs we sang @ my Christmas choir concert @ school!..It was pretty funny...so anyways.. I visited my old school, and was very excited to see everyone!!...I was also there to pick up 3 of my friends that also go to the same church(youth group) as I do...My best friend being among them!!!! =) hehe. I was so excited to see him, it was ridiculous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO..we bascically jammed out in my car on the way to church...it was awesome!!...I was in much need of jamming time!!..=)
so then we just hung out with our youth pastor with @ church...I got to play the piano with them for praise and worship..I love worshipping the Lord with the talents he has blessed me with!!..(just thought I'd throw that in there...)
Then on Thursday, I picked Brice up from school, and we went to the youth building...we had to wait a couple of hours till band practice, for church on Sunday, was ready to start, so we watched one of our favorite movies on my laptop...AUGUST RUSH!!!...If you're a musician you understand!
And today, I went to the farm show in Tulsa with my dad and grandpa...we had fun..we walked down EVERY asile...and Im NOT exaggerating either..But the real reason I went was for the fresh squeezed lemonade they had..it was SOOOOOOOO amazing..well that and to spend time with my dad and gpa...
Well..just thought I'd give you a play by play!!hahah.
...Now Im sitting here typing, and getting distracted by the Chronicles of Narnia on t.v., and waiting for my dad to take me to eat!..hehe. yup. exercise needed definitly!! =)
Nothing better than HOME SWEET HOME!
So, I guess Ill let you go...ttyl! =)

I'll Be Home For Christmas....

..I just absolutly love Christmas songs...as you can see by the past few titles of my blogs!!.. =)

Anyways..as you may have guessed, I'll Be Home For Christmas!!!.. (TOMORROW!!!)..that's right, I get to go home tomorrow!...I'm all done with my finals!!!!!!!!!!Thank the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!...The only thing I have left to do is tonight,..the Christmas choir I'm in is singing @ a local high school...It should be ok, although I would much rather go see a movie that my friends are going to watch...But O Well..This will be the last time for a month that I'll get to see my Choir buddies!..=/ I am gonna miss them...O I just remembered that I do have to turn a paper in tomorrow, but it's done, so that's no biggie!

As for Christmas, I am very excited, yet anxious about it this year. As you all know, My parents are divorced, and my father and I are doing Christmas a little different this year; starting new traditions I guess you could say...For example, my mom never liked having a real Christmas tree, but I love real trees!!..So, on Friday, me and my dad are going to go chop one down!! =) Although Im looking forward to that, Im not looking forward to having to go to 2 different houses to have Christmas with my parents. My mom also wants me to come spend the night sometime at her house while Im on break; part of my wants to, but another part of me doesn't know if I can handle it...Im still praying about it...Please pray for me to!!!

Also, This is the first Christmas without my grandmother...I hope this isn't very hard to deal with, although, I get tears in my eyes just thinking about it... hmm. anyways..I remind myself of all the great memories that I have with her, and Im ok... I found this poem somewhere, and I liked it so much, that I put it in my quote book and Im thinking about reading it @ Christmas time...It helps me put a smile on my face about Christmas this year.... Ill post it at the end, hope you enjoy it..

Anyways...Im also looking forward to the regular holiday traditions that my family has!!..Christmas Eve Morning=Christmas with Papa and Mimi(Sylvia)...I love thinking of new gifts to make for Papa, because I am the orneriest with him, so my gifts are usually very ornery...and I have an exceptionally good one this year!! Then we(the family) enjoy very good lunch, stuffing ourselves full up to the top claiming that we will, "Never be able to eat again," or my personal favorite, "I don't think I'll ever be able to move!!" We then procede on to opening presents, and spend time talking with the aunts, uncles, cousins, we haven't see in a while...We have a great time...Then on Christmas Eve, we make our way up to Mama's house, pack everyone in to the small, yet cozy, living room, and even after proclaiming that we will never eat again, we some how manage to find room in our stomach for 2 helpings of lasagna, 2/3 pieces of garlic bread, salad, and a huge portion of Mississippi Mud for desert...After everybody has stuffed theirselves again, someone reads the Christmas story from Luke 2...we take turns reading outloud every year, and I believe that it is Jana's turn this year if I am not mistaken..anyways...we read the story to remind us the true reason for the season!!..Jesus Christ...I love this tradition.. then of course, we procede on to the presents...the little kids making out with gifts like little bandits. The funny part is that the kids get the toys, and the parents end up playing with them!!(putting them together!) =) And sometimes, if anyone is feeling brave, someone will turn on the t.v. and try to watch, It's a Wonderful Life!!.(My favorite Christmas movie!!)

Well, I guess this was a longer post than expected...but I'm so excited for Christmas!! =)

So, I better be getting ready for my choir concert!...Merry Christmas everyone!!..ttyl! =)

Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless CHRISTMAS TREES

around the world below,

with tiny lights like HEAVEN’S STARS

reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so SPECTACULAR

please wipe away that tear

for I am spending CHRISTMAS

WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I hear the many CHRISTMAS SONGS

that people hold so dear

but the SOUND OF MUSIC can't compare

with the CHRISTMAS CHOIR up here.

I have no words to tell you

of the JOY their voices bring

for it is beyond description

to HEAR THE ANGELS SING.

I know HOW MUCH YOU MISS ME,

I see the pain inside your heart

for I am spending CHRISTMAS

WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I can't tell you of the SPLENDOR

or the PEACE here in this place

Can you just imagine CHRISTMAS

WITH OUR SAVIOR face to face

I'll ask him to LIFT YOUR SPIRIT

as I tell him of your love

so then PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER

as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your HEARTS BE JOYFUL

and let your SPIRIT SING

for I am spending CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

and I’m walking WITH THE KING

Baby It's Cold Outside!!!

ahhh!!..I think it be a little chilly outside!!...It reminds me of one of my favorite Christmas songs...Baby It's Cold Outside!!...I find this song extremely hilarious, yet I don't know why!!..But what I found funnier was as I was walking to Saga for lunch today (saga=cafeteria) they were playing it on the speakers outside..I find this ironic, because it is cold outside today!!..The wind is really bad!!..But anyways..they were playing the version that has Frank Sinatra singing..Old Blue Eyes..how I love to hear him sing...but I kinda started dancing by myself...Swing Dancing to be exact..I was so excited to hear the song!!.. =) Yes, I am a dork, and I never claimed to be normal...so I didn't lie, and Im telling the truth!!!
In other news, it seems like all I do lately is sing, sing, sing, and write papers. Singing is wonderful, papers not so much!!.. =P
Today was Christmas chapel, and the Christmas choir I am in, sang, along with several of the other choirs. We sand 3 of our songs. The Jazz and Wind Ensemble also preformed in chapel today, and they were really good as well. But I think the most amazing part was my piano teacher...he played a piano solo, and my jaw dropped open...again. He played it for me yesterday during my lesson. Anyways, he is really good..he was bustin out some 1/64th notes!!..Not even kidding!...hmm.
Anyways, I have been singin ALL week..we had Oratorio (christmas) choir practice on Monday, had Christmas chapel today, have practice tomorrow, the ORU Family Christmas program Friday, practice again on Sunday, and then we preform Monday nite @ one of the area high schools. This is a really busy week; it is considered dead week, the week before finals, but in all reality it's HOPPIN!...and I only have 2 finals next week, but they will be over by Monday!..yay!!!..My RA is checking me out of my room for this semester on Tuesday and I will be on my way home!!..For almost a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can u believe it!!..IM SO EXCITED!!...
anyways..I better go, I have Oral Comm in 30 min.!!..(btw, I made an A on my persuasive speech!! =])

Back in The Groove of Things..

So. I've been back in OK since Saturday afternoon. If you can recall, I spent my Thanksgiving with one of my friedns and her family in Pennsylvania. She is from NC but has some relatives in PA so her family decided to go up there for Thanksgiving. It was so much fun!..I got to meet her stepdad ( who was hilarious), her sister (she was pretty cool), her aunt, 2 cousins, and I got to see her mom again. Her mom is so sweet. Anyways. Thanksgiving dinner was sooo good!..OMG. I didnt stuff myself, but I definitly ate my share!!!.. =) I enjoyed PA so much. It was so pretty. THere were a lot of Amish farms and people there. And I enjoyed my first real Philly Cheese Steak Sandwich!!..THAT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!...I would get on an airplane right now to go get another one if I could! ...
anyways so we got up VERY VERY early on Sat. morning to come home and were back by 10:30 in the morning. My aunt, cousin, and 2 little cousins picked me up @ the airport. I was so glad to see them!..I was afraid I wasn't gonna get to see my older cousin till Christmas. So my aunt dropped us off back here @ ORU and I decided @ the spur of the moment to go home for the rest of the weekend. So I ran upstairs changed clothes and was on my way!!...Im so glad I went home. I got to hunt w/ my dad and his friend for a little while(although I fell asleep for about an hour cuz I was so tired) and then we went to his friend's house for supper and most importantly to watch the OU/OSU game!!..BOOMER SOONER baby!!!... =) that's right..OU won(of course) and is playing in the Big 12 game this Sat. Nite!!....
While I was home I also got to see all my friends @ church...I miss them so much!!...We went to eat after church, and I also ran into 2 of my friends from High School that were on the football team. I talked to them for a little bit, I was very excited to see them as well!!.. =)

Other than that, not much is going on here. Studying for finals, singing, playing the piano. The usual really. Oh, I have encountered a new series that I really enjoy reading and have become quite intrigued(spelling?) with....that would be the Twilight series. It is so good!!..I have read the 1st 3 books, and Im reading the 4th book right now..I have also seen the movie twice and plan on seeing it @ least once if not twice over Christmas break. It is so good!!!... =)
Anyways. That is about it. TTYL!!! =)
Keep the Faith!
XOXO-Aubrey

Hmm. Hmm. Hmm.

So!!..lol.
Today has been pretty good...not really a whole lot going on lately...Practicing like Crazy for my women's choir and Christmas concert!!..Good thing I LOVE singing!!!....
I get my grade for my persuasive speech tomorrow. Be praying for me!!!..lol. I really need this grade to be a good one...
Other than that..not much...getting ready for Thanksgiving...o and I've been missing my bestest friend like CRAZY this week...I don't know why..But i sure do miss him!!...
welp. I probably won't get to write again till next week. My women's concert tonight and then Im going home this weekend!!!!

Keep It real!...And Keep the Faith.
Peace out! =)