Thursday, July 10, 2008

So Much!!!!

So much has happened in the last couple of months. Where do I begin...well I guess I'll start with my grandmother.

As I'd written before, she'd been ill..she had fallen last August, and it just went downhill from there. Although there were several times we thought she was gone, she hung in there...But on May 12, just 5 days before her 97th birthday, she passed away. She was a fabulous woman, and I love and miss her very much...people say that time heals everything, but i really dont know if it will. I had spent just about every day of everysummer with her, and use to spend almost everyday out of the year with her. She was Amazing. She loved everyone, even people she had just met. It's so hard. Everytime I do something, I always think of her. Everything reminds me of her, and i guess thats not bad, because i can rememeber all the good times we had....But since she has died, it feels like i've lost my best friend. Im absolutly heartbroken. I really dont know how long it will take before i can really talk about her, or think about her without crying. But i do know, since she has passed on, my life hasnt been the same without her. I think these days im more quiet than i was before...yes i still have my teenage moments where im very goofy and silly, but i catch myself being quiet more than i use to be.

On an oppostie note, only 28 days before I move into my dorm room!!..Im so excited!!!..I will be attending Oral Roberts University....I only know 1 of my friends that goes there, but i've met many people on facebook that are going there in the fall. So it will be fun. Im really excited..Although Im still working on the scholarships. Ive received a few, but Im suppose to audition in the music department for a big one. The Cherokee Nation will also pay for my housing, so there's a few thousand less that I'll have to worry about. But I'm really excited!!..I have 2 sets of aunts and uncles that I will be about 5-10 minutes away from..And then my dad's business partner and his family lives only about 2 minutes away!!...Plus i have a cousin who lives in Broken Arrow, and my old pastor that retired last fall, him and his wife are moving to B.A. also!!...I still have to get all of my stuff tho. I found this comforter and sheets to match @ Wal Mart that I really like, and ill get towels and some organizer things...and some food..lol!!..They supply us with fridges and microwaves...yay!...
well so Im ready to go to college, but im not ready to leave my dad.. I will miss getting to run around with him very much..although i wont be that far from the house...but still!!

Some more exciting news!!....I get to go on a mission trip to L.A.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. Im so excited!...we will be working 3 days @ the dreamcenter, and then for 2-3 days we will be sightseeing!!..So places like the walk of fame, hard rock cafe-hollywood...HOLLYWOOD!!!....THE BEACH!!...here's some wishful thinking for ya..we might get a picture with a star!!..lol... who knows...anyways..ill have to miss 2 days of school, but i think it will definitly be worth it....
well..ive gotta go!...I have p&w practice tonight....and then i might go run a mile or so...well ill ttyl!..