College doubts....

Ok...so as I said earlier I am an Official Sooner Girl!!..and I love it!!..although I have had my doubts...I don't really know where to start, so I'll just jump in.

I've had many doubts about attending OU in the fall. I mean, first of all, Im Daddy's Little Girl...what am I going to do without him..Im use to getting to see him everyday, and to go from that to seeing him once maybe twice a month is a big change.

Second of all Im afraid of loosing my best friend.. His name is Brice. This is a picture of us together...He's only a freshman, but he really is my best friend. He is always there for me, and we do everything together. Im afraid that when I go off to college he'll find a new best friend...Im afraid that Ill be replaced. And I cant handle that. I shouldn't worry..We made a promise that we would call each other at least twice a week to talk to each other...but still. But We have the kind of friendship we can tell each other anything.

It was very funny the other day. We just got a new youth pastor 2 months ago, so he is still learning about all of us @ church...Well..Brice and I both play in the band @ church. He plays guitar, I the piano..So anyways, I had to run Brice back to his house because he 4got his picks for the guitar...Well I had just put lotion on from Bath and Body Works that was suppose to smell like chocolate and orchids...well Brice thought it smelled like Carmex...so he started calling me chapstick...well I was arguing with him that it didnt as we were walking out the door...we had been going on for about 10 minutes...we were almost out the door, and Pastor James(P.J.) said are you sure you two aren't married...lol..we both looked @ each other and started laughing...well we went to his house and got the picks, and when we got back to the youth building, we were picking @ each other again..and P.J. looked @ us and said, "Are you two still @ it?" it was so funny...

That's the kind of relationship we have. We go together like PB and J..I promise this is what God did..He looked down and saw me...said Wow she's kinda boring..he added Brice to my life, looked down again, and said..That's AMAZING!!!!...

I know with a relationship like that I shouldn't be worried..but I can't help it...I guess it's human nature.

I even talked to him about me going to ORU, and he thinks that I should go ahead and go to OU...I shouldn't pass up the chance..and I think he's right...It's just gonna be hard to say goodbye the last night I get to spend with him. I cry everytime I think about it...Like Now..lol...

I told him that, and he told me not to cry cause it was gonna make him cry..and I still have like 6 months left before I go..

But even though Im worried, I know God will take care of everything...He wont let me loose my best friend just when I need him most.....

Other than that, Im really excited about OU...I've already started making a list of things I need..Including my new car...Im praying for a powder blue new body style mustang...Dad said it could possibly be my graduation/18th birthday present..Im also trying to become a football trainer for them next year. I pray to God that works out..I know I would have so much fun...I won't know my roommate tho..Everyone that Im friends with from my school that's going to OU already has a roommate...So I guess it's gonna be a suprise...

Im praying that God gives me a good one....someone that's a Christian and easy to get along with. I don't know if I can handle having a bad roommate and being away from my bestest friend all at the same time..

Im staying positive though...this is how my Aunt met one of her best friends she has now..they were roommates in college together...so it will be good...

Speaking of Graduation...only 11 weeks left!!!...I am excied about that!!..Although there is one thing...my graduation is the same night as my cousin's...I know it stinks...Im so bummed..It means our family will be separated...My Mama( my dad's mom) will probably go to her graduation..and my Papa and Sylvia(dad's dad and stepmom) are planning on coming to mine...But my Aunt Lea and her family will probably go to Jana's too..I was talking to my dad about this and he simply said, "well, you were born to a son, and not a daughter.." I guess it's true...Aunt Lea and Aunt Kathy have a special relationship...so o well...

But Im having a big graduation party @ my house after graduation..a lot of my mom's side of the family are coming...and quite a few from my dad's side...