Maybe its all a bad dream...

Well, my great grandmother died Monday. Im so upset. She was my favorite person in the whole wide world!!...She was the best ever!!...She was 96 and would've been 97 on Saturday...I loved her so much...I have so many memories with her...most of them make me laugh and cry at the same time..
One time (I was about 4 or 5) and I was standing on the couch looking out the window at the cows. I looked at her and I said, "Those are my cows." She said, "O really, and just where did you get them?" Without missing a beat, I replied "WalMart." I got them from WalMart because back then I thought everything came from WalMart. =) This was her favorite story. And she told it to everyone who visited. She also would tell it over and over again to me. Its also one of my favorite memories...
One of the other things I remember doing quite often is whenever I would see my parents drive up I would run and hide behind the LAZboy chair and Id tell Grandma, "Dont tell them where Im at!!"I wanted to stay with my grandma for forever....Of course it was the same chair Id hide behind everyday... but she never told them. =)
I loved her so much...I loved everything about her. Her eyes, her smile, her personality, and her little body. I loved it all..
I loved the movie night that we would have..(me, Jana, Trent, Aunt Kathy, and Grandma.) We would all go to grandma's house and spend the night. We would stay up and watch movies (usually disney channel!) and we'd all eat a bunch of popcorn.
I loved getting to spend the night with Grandma.
One thing I remember doing the most @ Gma's is baking cakes. Whenever I would go over to her house, we would bake a cake together. And the next one was always better than the last one!...Grandma fed everyone who ever entered the door @ her house. When me and my dad would go over to her house she would ask, "Aren't you guys hungry? Can't I feed you?" If you said yes, she would hop up and fix you something to eat. If you said no, she would ask you over and over until you said yes. Well one time my dad and I said yes were hungry so she feed us. Well after cleaning up the dishes we sat down to talk with her again. And she turned to my dad( who is a little plump) and said, "Honey, Are you watching your weight? Im worried about you." ....this makes me laugh everytime I hear it...Dad wanted to say, well Grandma its because you are always feedin me...but he didnt....he probably would've got slapped if he did say it...Grandma might've weighed 86lbs, but she could still woop him if she wanted...She was as stubborn as a Missiouri mule, and as tough as an old boot......She was the best.
Well today is her funeral...I really dont want this day to happen. I wish it was all a bad dream that I could wake up from...I wish I could go over to her house right now and she would open the door and look up @ me and smile that pretty smile..and say I love you so much....But thats not how its going to happen...The family lunch is @ 12 and then the funeral is @ 2...Me and my friend Brice are playing the first song @ the funeral...we decided to play HOMESICK by MERCYME....and hopefully I can get through it without crying...
it just feels like everything is coming apart....I mean what am I going to do without my little grandma...My aunt Lea said that she was talking to grandma one time after grandpa died. Grandma said that it never got easier after grandpa died, even tho everyone said it would....well how do I know its gonna get easier...
I know she's in a better place..and she's with Grandpa...I know Ill get to see her again one day...But I miss her so much...its unreal...and its only been 4 days.....
Well i better go get ready...

Oh and Grandma. I love you the mostest!!!!!
=) All my love!!
XOXOXO
~Aubrey

College Visit!!

Ok...so I have some new information. Instead of attending the University of Oklahoma, and being an official Sooner Girl, I have decided to go to Oral Roberts University.
I think that I will like it much better at ORU than I would @ OU.

So I went down this past Tuesday and took a campus tour. I got to meet with my admissions counselor, and he was extremely nice..(not to mention kinda cute!!.) but that's another story now isnt it!..lol. Anyways..everyone I met was extremely nice, and i enjoyed it very much.

My tour guide was a sophomore student, and her name was Kate. She was super sweet, and I enjoyed her company very much!..She was showing us (me and my dad) around the campus, and she told us that every building on the ORU campus is symbolic in some way. For example, @ one of the buildings, their was a fountain. @ the top of the fountain it was triangular. This had one big spout and poured down to a layer below. The layer below had 12 little spouts that poured out into yet another layer. The layer @ the top represented Jesus. He poured out all his knoweledge and teaching into the twelve disciples (represented by the 12 spouts). The disciples then poured out what they learned to the rest of the world (the layer @ the bottom). I thought this was really neat. Next time I visit the campus I will have to remember to take my camera and get a picture of it!....But every building had symbolisim like that.
So I am officially an ORU Golden Eagle. I also got to see the chapel while I was visiting. It was absolutly beautiful. It was so big!!!!!!!!!!..I loved it!

Anyways. On to other news. Only 14 days until I graduate(weekends included)and its 10 days without the weekends!!...yay!!..I am excited, but at the same time I am extremely nervous....Some days I wish I could stay in high school for forever. And other days I cant wait to get out of that place!!..

Prom is tomorrow... =/ I have mixed feelings about that...I really cant wait to get it over with!!...But I hope it is fun...I went and got my nails done today..i really like them, although it is tough to adjust to fake nails....it also makes it a little difficult to play the piano!..But I have to work with it..They look very pretty though. I had the french tips put on..and then the girl painted a red stripe across them and then put a flower on each of my ring fingers...They are very cute, and I will have to take a picture of them before I pull them off... My hair appointment is at 9 or 930 in the morning, and I am very excited about it!!..I have a tiara to put in my hair!....I know im a princess all the time, but now everyone will know!!!!!!!... =P I think the dressing up part will be fun, and I pray that the prom part will be fun!...i dont have a date, but im hoping that it will be ok....I will get to dance with all my girls!!..lol..

I have been patiently waiting for a new car...and hopefully its almost here!!..Im trying to talk dad into letting me get a mustang!!...I really want one!!..I think we might go look @ cars next Saturday night!!..We passed a dealership the other day, and we got to stop @ it, and he let me sit in a convertible!!...I loved it!!...I sat in it for 20 minutes and then he had to literally DRAG me out of it!!!!!!!...Although when I get one, it probably wont be a convertible. My Grandpa would think my dad's gone crazy and probably have him committed it i did get 1!!

Well thats about it for a while...only 33 days till my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!..yay!!!!!!

XOXOXO
~Aubrey