Does It Ever.....

...get any easier. It's been over eight months since my great grandmother died. Yet, I still miss her terribly. I think Im getting over her passing, and then Ill see a picture of me with her, and I just start balling like a big baby. I mean It's not as bad as when she first died. That was terrible. I would actually have classified myself as a person in a state of depression for a couple of weeks. I cried myself to sleep every night for a while. Yes, that was terrible. And I do know that I shouldn't be sad, because Ill get to see her again someday; and Im so grateful for that. But I think of all the good times that we had together, and I can't help be sad. I mean I spent A LOT of my childhood with her, and a lot of my memories involve her. And it's hard to think that I don't get to make anymore with her. I remember this story very distinctly. My aunt asked her one time if it ever got any easier after my great grandpa died. (this was about 10 years after) Grandma responded no. Now I know they were married, and that is a big difference from being her grand-daughter. but still.
Well I do believe that eventually I will be able to look at a picture of us and not cry. The question being when. They say that time heals everything. And with a lot of help from God, I believe this will be true. Someday the hole in my heart will not be as big as it is today. And I do thank God for that.


Sorry about my rampage there. I was having a moment.
In other news, School is going well, although, Im just ready for summer. That's all there is to it. And it is SOOOOO cold here!!..I mean single digits!..and we had a little snow. hmm. That's how I feel about it. I told dad yesterday "Bring on summer and hay baling!" You know that it's bad when Im begging to work. lol. ;)
And...I also get my braces off in like 16 days or so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...Im so excited!..Im gonna eat corn on the cob for the first time in like 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!
..I also went dancing last night. It was mainly a practice session thing that Krystine and I did with one of our good friends. It was so much fun!..I hadn't danced since I think before Thanksgiving!.It was good!...
well. Chapel is in a little while, so I better go get ready!. Toodles. Have a wonderful weekend!!!!! =)

Back to School.

Well. I had a wonderful Christmas break. I got to spend time with most of my family members, and see ones that I hadn't seen in a while. It was good. New Year's Eve was A BLAST!!..I spent it with all of my friends from home @ my youth pastor's house!...It was so much fun, and I have so many memories just from that one night!... =) anyways. Then on New Year's Day my cousin wanted me to come help her redo her room....well. that was fun. let's just say, that I was VERY tired, and she did more work than I did!! ;)
Anyways, the rest of the break was awesome, I really enjoyed getting to hang out with all of my friends from church. Especially my bestest friend!!.. He's amazing!... ;)
SO now, I am back @ school. At the very moment, doing nothing...lol. who'dathunkit??!! probably gettin ready to watch a movie!.. funfun! =)
But I do have a relativly hard schedule...not hard, but Im gonna like it!! =) well. That movie is calling me. TTYL! ;)