...get any easier. It's been over eight months since my great grandmother died. Yet, I still miss her terribly. I think Im getting over her passing, and then Ill see a picture of me with her, and I just start balling like a big baby. I mean It's not as bad as when she first died. That was terrible. I would actually have classified myself as a person in a state of depression for a couple of weeks. I cried myself to sleep every night for a while. Yes, that was terrible. And I do know that I shouldn't be sad, because Ill get to see her again someday; and Im so grateful for that. But I think of all the good times that we had together, and I can't help be sad. I mean I spent A LOT of my childhood with her, and a lot of my memories involve her. And it's hard to think that I don't get to make anymore with her. I remember this story very distinctly. My aunt asked her one time if it ever got any easier after my great grandpa died. (this was about 10 years after) Grandma responded no. Now I know they were married, and that is a big difference from being her grand-daughter. but still.
Well I do believe that eventually I will be able to look at a picture of us and not cry. The question being when. They say that time heals everything. And with a lot of help from God, I believe this will be true. Someday the hole in my heart will not be as big as it is today. And I do thank God for that.
Sorry about my rampage there. I was having a moment.
In other news, School is going well, although, Im just ready for summer. That's all there is to it. And it is SOOOOO cold here!!..I mean single digits!..and we had a little snow. hmm. That's how I feel about it. I told dad yesterday "Bring on summer and hay baling!" You know that it's bad when Im begging to work. lol. ;)
And...I also get my braces off in like 16 days or so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...Im so excited!..Im gonna eat corn on the cob for the first time in like 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!
..I also went dancing last night. It was mainly a practice session thing that Krystine and I did with one of our good friends. It was so much fun!..I hadn't danced since I think before Thanksgiving!.It was good!...
well. Chapel is in a little while, so I better go get ready!. Toodles. Have a wonderful weekend!!!!! =)
August 27, 2014
10 years ago
4 comments:
You're not alone sweetie. I still get emotional when I think that Piper never got to meet her. She was my saving grace at so many points when I was little, and older.
We just have to peace knowing that she is a far better place. (((HUGS)))
I'm sorry you are having such a hard time with Grandma's passing. I have some thoughts on this but don't want to leave them on the blog and not sure if I have your updated email address.
well. yes. I still have the same email that I've had. I would love to hear ur thoughts on this.
My dear Aubrey. I still miss grandma too. Holidays aren't easy either when you've lost someone you hold dear. I will be praying for you. Love you so much.
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